Saturn Retro 2025: 19: Being and Nothingness

Been a while since I posted about ongoing Saturn Retrograde. Completely Forgetting that it's a Karmic functionality for me ( check my previous thousand posts on Saturn Retro). And that I get some kind of reprieve from it's tallows, when I keep on writing about it. Otherwise it becomes quite messy, like I recently found out. The swamps become deeper and muddier. The mud rises from the knees up to your neck. Almost swallowing you down under. Completely.

Today's post suddenly began at 2:49 am, Monday morning. Abruptly and suddenly. As I woke up from sleep, uncharacteristically. As if, the culminating events of the past week, almost coerced me to write. Compulsively and abruptly, and without ceremony. More like a human experiencing Saturn Retrograde.

 Bereft of the astrological interpretations of the previous posts of Saturn retrograde 2025. As if, strangulating gravitation, choked me up, and writing was the only activity, that provided air passage to my lungs. Writing directly, and without ado.

 
Is this what we would experience while crossing through a black hole? As gravity increased exponentially and time itself reversed? And we began to be confronted, and haunted by the ghosts from the past. As they immensely and fervently clawed at our soul.

I took a screenshot of my first Saturn retrograde blog post, previously uploaded on Threads. Reminding my own self of its ongoing schedule. A schedule that Surpassed all other PREVAILING AND ONGOING astrological transits. Especially for me.  I have written about it already.

Why I discontinued writing on Retrograde was because of two reasons: Readers/ audience, and secondly astrological content. But as a human writing about Saturn Retrograde for about twenty years, both online and offline, I could just summon up the decades long inertia..  and just continue..

Maybe these words uploaded on the post served some deeper, direct, karmic functionality that I was yet to fathom.

 
As soon, as I opened my mobile in the darkness, this song popped up before me.. On YouTube.

👉🏼Walking in Circles - Fadaway 👈🏼

And, which, I played in a loop, to help me spurn forth these words of mine. Just writing about BEING/ existing in Retrograde. Remembering the title of Being and Nothingness by Jean Paul Sartre. Just BEING/ existing. Extrapolate on the fibres, and cables of BEING/ existing itself. Without ANY event or content. Except one. Saturn Retrograde! Just that. Only that singular one.

 
Now, it's 3:12 am, the strangulating grasp upon my neck feels a bit relieved. The heart feels slightly less heavier. But yet, so far, down this post, I have complete and utterly, written about nothing in particular, so far. But.. Just written. 

And by listening to a singular song that popped up on YouTube, at this unearthly hour. It's not even, of my particular taste. But slightly hovered around the songs in my Smouldering Blues Country folder amongst 134 other astrologically sorted music folders, sorted According to. Mood, nuance and shade.

Saturn retrograde writing has always had it's own way with me. Surpassing time, space, borders, definition and objectivity. Just the Smouldering Blue of the universe, reaching out to me. Tapping me on my shoulders in a unearthly hour. To just wake up, and relentlessly write. About the metaphysical churning process of Saturn retrograde.
About what it feels like to be human. Bereft of all content, and trappings. The hardware beneath, all that overwhelming software.

I have read enough in my lifetime to tangentially grasp, out of the corner of my eye, that, this piece would have been some great passage of writing, if placed in the right place in a novella, or a piece which was about self reflection.

But no!! .. It had to be this random piece in my blog, strictly about the metaphysics of Saturn retrograde. About it's human nitty gritty. This was not writing, but rambling about nothingness in particular. I wouldn't call it the Void, as it has been, the intellectual  trend in the past hundred years or so. I would call it nothingness. The nothingness of the hardware that operates our human consciousness and Experiencing. Beneath all that overloaded software. Like the massive library of Apps, pictures, and music in your phone.
But, beneath it all, the loneliness, and emptiness of the hardware.

One thing definitely bothers me though. I can ONLY write this well, only when, I'm writing about Saturn retrograde. Otherwise, my writing ALWAYS feels forced, contrived, phallocentric and hollow. And I rapidly tire of the process of writing, even while I'm at it.

But Saturn retrograde is different. It taps on your shoulder. Wake you up at an unearthly hour. To just wake your senses, and write. Listening to a singular piece of music, that just found you, and just write.

Anyways, it's 3: 46 am now, I'm a bit woozy now, so I'll end this post..
.. As abruptly as I began..
🙏🏼🙏🏼🌷🌷 Jai Shanidev 🌷🌷🙏🏼🙏🏼

Saturn Retro 2025: 18: Divisional Magic

Today's my 18th post on Saturn Retrograde 2025. In contrast with my earlier volcanic, apocalyptic posts, in today's post, I get to celebrate the truly Retrogressive and Retrograde quality of Saturn Retro season.

After many comments and sharing ideas with fellow astrologer Eshan Sen on Instagram Threads, we finally came on call and did a mutual reading of each other's horoscopes. The first thing that struck me was that he had Rahu Mars in 10th, and Venus Saturn in 6th, EXACTLY like Darshan, a young astrologer whom I had regularly connected in my visits to hometown Guwahati. He had the SAME brilliant acumen, insight, analytical ability, sharpness that allowed him/ them to foray into completely esoteric, ethereal, and unconventional realms of astrological analysis.

 Whereas, in Darshan's case, his methodology, was a completely ALTERNATIVE perspective on the most regular horoscopes, a system which I haven't been able to fathom, in Eshan's case, his methodology was strictly Vedic, BUT which forayed into the complex, fine, esoteric realms of Vedic astrology, and in this case, the realm of the..Divisional Charts!! 

 In Vedic astrology, the Divisional charts, D9 Navamsa, D10 Dashamsa, and so on, and so forth uptil D60, Shashtiamsa, represented, a single Rashi/ Zodiac being divided into parts/ degrees/ sectors like the name suggested. D9, divides 30°, of a single zodiac into 9 divisions of 3°20', ie, 3 degrees and twenty minutes. D10, Dashmasha, divides 30°, of a single zodiac into 10 divisions of 3°, ie, 3 degrees. D60, Shastiamsa, divided 30°, of a single zodiac into 60 divisions of 3 1/2 °, ie, 1/2 of a degree!!!

 I have always used D9 in relationship considerations, and D10 in career aspects in my horoscope analysis regularly. But never had I forayed into the oceanic, karmic depths of these divisional charts 🔥🔥🔥

 And since divisional charts require such precision in birth timing, it's always better to be left to an expert in this specialized field who understood WHICH DIVISIONAL CHART CARRIED The EXACT Karmic Footprint !! WHICH ONE TO SELECT FOR RELEVANT ANALYSIS🔥🔥 Eshan started our conversation, intuitively from Akshavedamsha, D45, where 30° of a rashi, zodiac was divided into 45 divisons!! Do the math 🔥🔥🔥!!

Above is my D45 chart, and Eshan jumped to the tenth house where you see a cluster chaos of four malefic planets in Pisces, forming an Asphyxiating karmic knot! He said as an opening dialogue.. " You're gifted.. But challenged ". Which has been a dominant theme in my life from SCHOOLDAYS itself! 

I remember school teachers calling my parents, on my bad days.. " Your son is extremely gifted, but so challenged.. ". A dominant them, haunting spirit, which has relentlessly pursuit me across my life, now, into this gray haired age!! For an astrologer to pick out a SINGLE Divisional chart amongst AT LEAST 20 OTHERS, to expose the most Dominant theme of ones life, and to define it with a clear phase, is what I believe is the hallmark of a truly gifted astrologer. He could have begun anywhere D1, D9, even the all conclusive D60, revealing summation of our Karmic accounts. 

BUT no, he started and focussed on D45. Especially focussing on some INHERITED karma from my father's side of family. Why was this so spectacular and relevant to me?? BECAUSE👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

 12 years before I used to more Vaastu work, and the odd interiors project, heralding my gradual crossing over. But then I had come across my then spiritual Guide Energy Healer D Roy Karmakar, who had divined through his powers, that there was Tantric practitioner in my fathers side of family, who passed away before completing his rituals, and resolving things. And I was an energy incarnation of that ancestor, taking birth to resolve his various incomplete energy processes. 

Later on research I did find, that my paternal grandmothers father, ie, my dad's mum's dad, was indeed a great Kali Sadhak, priest, who was famous. He used to walk from far away to do ceremonial poojas for the Jorhat theatre. Also during the great earthquake of the 60s, even as houses crumbled, the river changed course, submerging the then capital city of Dibrugarh, his pooja remained undisturbed. Even his ghat, copper vessel containing water during pooja remained undisturbed, in hometown Jorhat.

 I've performed many tarpan, shanti, energy clearing, catharsis rituals since then. And even became a full time astrologer. But somewhere, never had the exact astrological visual picture justifying this karmic precondition lurking in my roots.

 With Eshan's diagnosis, I could finally have the exact CT scan, lab report of a condition which had festered me for long. Now, with the lab report in hand, the manifold remedial measures could be aligned/ focussed on the karmic imbalance at hand. 

Like my spiritual guide used to say.. Identification of the problem was 75% of the remedy. Today, this adage was finally proved true. In fact, that this revelation came so close to Janmashtami, the birthday of Lord Krishna, already aligned me with the remedies and measures to be undertaken on that day. . 

Conclusion: the astrologer giving the rightful remedy is but a medium of the Lord above, choosing the vehicle to deliver our karmic resolution, and liberation.. at the appropriate time!! 

 🙏🏼🙏🏼🌷🌷Jai Shanidev 🌷🌷🙏🏼🙏🏼

Saturn Retro 2025: 17: Saturn Mars Opposition

Just when you thought it was safe to go into the water - Jaws 2

Yes! Just when I completely retired from writing Retrograde posts, this transition came up to my notice..
Retrograde Saturn in Pisces opposing Mars in Virgo.. PEAKING on 9th August, Saturday, 10 am, IST.

Just when we celebrated the ending of Mars + Ketu ( Angaraka yoga) in Leo.. 🔥🔥Mars in Virgo 👉🏼👉🏼🔥🔥👈🏼👈🏼opposing Retrograde Saturn in Pisces.. Began.. 🤬🤬

Also, yesterday I met some really dear friends in a close knit family party. Looks like.. the husband and wifey read my EVERY post on Retrograde!! But NEVER reached out... to ask the many questions they had..!! 🔥🔥🤬🤬🤬🤬 Yes, this means you.. Dhruv and Sanjana!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥. .

 Anyways.. Instead of posting NEW posts.. I'll continue to upload / update on THIS VERY POST until the 9th August.. Next Saturday.. FOCUSSING ON THIS OPPOSITION TRANSIT! thanks 🙏🏼🙏🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

Saturn Retro 2025: 16: Movie - Butcher's Crossing

Prologue

24th July, Thursday, day 12 of 14 days of Red Hot Rising phase of annual Saturn retrograde. As mentioned in the earlier post, Mars Ketu deep conjunction in Purva Phalguni, pada 4, Scorpio Navamsa, made it scorchingly Hot like Hell from Sunday afternoon to Wednesday morning. How Hot and Apocalyptic was this crossing? A movie brought these emotions to life, artistic expression. Which I saw half on Tuesday night, half on Wednesday night. Exactly at this omnious crossing of two phases. If you see my posts from seven years back, each Saturn Retrograde, I had coincidentally come across great Epic movies which expressed the flavour, taste, quality of Saturn retro through that particular sign, prevailing planetary transits at that time, transit and sign.

Retrograde Epic Movie

The plot is simple. In the Old West, a young student Will Andrews drops out of Harvard, comes to the frontier to join Buffalo hunter Miller ( Nicholas Cage) in a hunting expedition. This was during the period of great demand for Buffalo hides. 

Unlike other hunters, Miller is in quest of a great mythical massive herd in a remote land. Where other hunting trips take less than a week, their expedition runs into several months, because of the bloodthirsty greed of Miller. The three man crew is left to the mercy of the harsh elements of nature far away from civilization. 

And in the course of their prolonged, damned, apocalyptic, journey, as the naive Harvard dropout Will, questions his own intentions seeking adventure, we, as an audience, question our own innate bloodthirsty, greed, lurking within us, in our quest, ambition, to become GREATER than others, in our search of glory and achievement.

 
The Buffalo is the official vehicle/ animal upon which both Lord Shanidev and Lord Yama, ride upon. In the frontier land, the technical Bison, is mentioned as Buffalo. But they are sub species of the same Buffalo genus. Their complete oblivious ness, their stationary state, even when they are being shot down, massacred, completely shows the current Retrograde motion.

 The sheer butchery, savage, rawness, of the hunting expedition for buffalo hide, shows the exact energies of Mars Ketu deep conjunct in Purva Phalguni, pada 4, Scorpio Navamsa.

 
The sheer Dumbness, numbness of the low score of the general audience review shows the apathy, of the herds, as they stand stationary, in the face of great spiritual crises, trapped in their own, cosy existential limbos.

I saw Mandy stg: Nicholas Cage, during the second Covid lockdown, in the Great Conjunction, namely Saturn, Jupiter, and Pluto, after 100 years, in Capricorn. It was brutal like the times prevailing. 

And Butcher's Crossing by comparison is more like a documentary, factual narrative of a Buffalo hunting expedition gone wrong. More objective, distant, detached. The response is completely upon the viewer. It also shows that, post Covid, since our relationship to social media, digital platforms have increased manifold, our empathy has manifold decreased. Our apathy, insensitivity, as we are sucked into the existential limbos of our narrow individual existences. 

Gloomy??
NOT if you find yourselves watching such existential films during such Retrograde transits, WHEN, you're SUPPOSED to be in this state of self questioning, introspection, as per the schedule of the great wheels of time and fate.

Prologue

I was supposed to blog about a amazing new branding line, my client/friend, has bravely launched. I was supposed to blog about a new healing method that I have found.

But I guess not... not before I had to cross the butchers crossing, and retrograde/ retrospect into violent legacies from our past lives lurking inside our subconscious. The invisible effects and remnants of which we experience in our daily lives. And needs to processed. Especially during this time..

Also, yesterday, a great trailblazer, rockstar comet, Ozzy Osbourne passed away. I was a fan of his more haunting, Saturnine songs.. 👇🏼

👉🏼Fire in The Sky - Ozzy Osbourne 👈🏼

This favorite haunting, smouldering track of Ozzy strangely reflects the poster, mood, plot, and especially the ending... of the movie I reviewed above 🙏🏼🙏🏼🔥

🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼Jai Shanidev 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Saturn Retro 2025: 15: Titanic Taandav

From Sunday, 20th July, 2:10 pm, afternoon to Wednesday, 23rd July, 8:50 am, the fiery, volcanic, Mars Ketu conjunction, ie Angaraka Yoga, in Leo, in Purva Phalguni Nakshatra, comes together in a Volcanic Clash in its fourth Pada.. SCORPIO Navamsa!!

This is FURTHERMORE much more MAGNIFIED and ACCENTUATED because.. This is running COMPLETELY PARALLEL to Saturn Retro 2025. ESPECIALLY it's volcanic, Rajasic preface of Gravitas phase. And the current Red Hot Riding Phase. 🔥🔥🔥

CONCLUSION

From Sunday afternoon 2pm to Wednesday morning 9 am... 

For some of you, a portal beyond unimaginable energy has opened after a gap of 18 years! You have been feeling this intense surge of energy these last two weeks.. In your blood, veins, within.. So go for it.. Make the Leap.. NOW!! 

And for others, these last two weeks have been 🤢🤢🤢😵‍💫😵‍💫🤢🤢.. How much more signs you need, just take a breather, take rest, just relax, chill out, hide under a rock.. In this period..

🙏🏼🙏🏼That's ALL todays post is about 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Saturn Retro 2025: 14: Sun Saturn Swamp

I ran out of steam in these past 13 posts about Saturn Retro 2025. From last two days, COMPLETELY LEFT IT TO Shanidev to provided the impetus, inspiration to continue. And at noon, one call + what's app provided the basis of my next possible post 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

This was from Ravi Deka, my school senior, and close friend, bro, guide, and  astrology journeyman from 1987. Composite bamboo Boat maker, innovator, fuel innovator, etc, etc, etc 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

👉🏼Linked in profile: Ravi J Deka👈🏼

List of illustrious achievements are uncountable, BUT SO ARE negative experiences, calamities in his life, read his blog.. 👇🏼👇🏼

https://ravideka.blogspot.com/

My today's topic is about his morning what's app message (at top) where he's  pushing his latest boat prototype over marsh, land,  মেতেকা: water hyacinths.. even to reach the water. Yet, chanting the Lords name! A Sisyphean situation. But  despite uncountable and unlimited obstacles, this Man somehow never gives up!! Is it due to lagna Lord Sun in in 10th house, He who Maketh his Own Destiny.., EVEN THOUGH it's conjunct with Saturn, his 6th, 7th Lord!! 

Currently, his Leo ascendant house  has Ketu + Mars forming volatile Angaraka Yoga extremus until 27th July! Still, this man pushes onward!! Still, he continues climbing the precarious Red Hot Rising Retro mountain (13 - 27 July) of annual Saturn Retro 2025. 

I had previously blogged about him in my third blog 👇🏼👇🏼 but it was an erratic, fun post👇🏼

👉🏼Experiment with Moonstone 👈🏼

Not like this Retrograde, overloaded, Sisyphean post, full of the furnace, heat of the Vulcan industry. Where you're yourself physically pushing a boat you designed.. to reach the water 💧💧💧

Reminds me of the Werner Herzog movie.. Fitzcarraldo, where the protagonist moves a ship over jungles and mountains in the deep Amazon jungles.. 

Epilogue/Swamped

Morning, I was drowning in this series, a period story based on the marshes in Essex, a sea serpent, a superstitious fishing village, progressive priest played by "Loki", widowed naturalist, cutting edge doctor in a swampy, medieval, marshy, village setting

And reality imitates what art I'm watching. Another Bro, whose bank account got suddenly frozen due to KYC non compliance, and might have to go to hometown Gwhy, on borrowed funds!!

Yet another, an architect, whose site technician whose from Calcutta got electrocuted in his site, in the deep remote town of Haryana, and ALL the ensuing  complications this calamity implied!!! 

So, excuse me, if I abruptly wrap up this post..  Because.. I'm feeling a bit.. swamped. . 🔥🔥🔥

Saturn Retro 2025: 13: Bat From Beltola

Epilogue

From yesterday, the Red Hot Rising phase of annual Saturn retrograde 2025, has begun.. namely, from 13th - 27th July. The most intense first two weeks of Saturn retrograde!! It's only because of my keeping on constantly: 11 posts through the previous Gravitas phase, namely, 28 jun - 12 July, I can SOMEHOW continue narrating my experiences/ observations through blogging..

My usual eccentricity, electric restlessness temporarily GONE. Just a monotone drone, a flat graph on the oscillator monitor, without a pulse. The monotone Deadening hum of DC voltage. A perfect, mind numbing, deadening hum of the ongoing Saturnine schedule. Which, somehow, after a gap of SEVEN YEARS, I have accidentally resurrected/ restarted..

Today, I kind of feel empty, vacuous, after all that movement. Now that Red hot Rising Retro phase has begun for the next two weeks, how will I handle it? How will I continue, with the retrograde process??!!

One side of me says: forget it! Leave it at 12 posts! Another side: it's NOT complete until this Red hot Rising phase is over!

Celebration and Poisoning

I'm at Wework 16th floor after a looong time. My sister/ colleague/ Architect Shweta is leaving for.. 🙏🏼🙏🏼 🇯🇵🇯🇵🇯🇵 Japan🇯🇵🇯🇵🇯🇵🙏🏼🙏🏼 on Wednesday for a week, to attend a Architecture conference where she is going to be awarded for the nth, infinite time for her designs. Rajasic Retro Super blast!! 🔥🔥 as she's staying in..🗼🗼Tokyo 🗼🗼!! She might be visiting 🗻🗻🗻Mount Fiji too 🗻🗻🗻!!

Ahem, 😏😏😏😏, like I was saying, for Rajasic people..this time of 14 + 14 days! Gravitas + Red Hot Rising phase.. 27 jun - 28 July.. A time of Red hot crucial break through.. Window..

I got a chocolate cake from downstairs Modern Bazaar, to celebrate her victory. And was waiting for them for long time. Impatiently, angrily, I began eating the cake until this.. 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

Obviously, very soon, I started having the stomach cramps AGAIN!! Impatience, greed, rage, adrenaline, not working out too great.. 🤢🤢🤢🤢.. 

Bat from Beltola

I searched for some medicines in my bag, and all I found was this Bat Statue.. Which I got from a client in Beltola, hometown Guwahati. As part of 3 ghostly things not in place in her home. She couriered it to me in Delhi, long after I had left hometown. I constantly carried it around, in my bag.. and got checked at least 28 times in these past days, in the Metro, because of its size/ shape. 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

Later, out of boredom and stomach cramps, I started to click the Bat Statue with my favorite pendant, Tarot Card 12: The Hanged Man. BOTH UPSIDE DOWN in their natural state, BOTH Retrograde in their natural flow.

Then I started to remember my early childhood in Beltola.. 

Childhood in Beltola

In about 1980, we moved from a rented place in Kharguli to our own home in Beltola. It was all paddy fields, thatched houses, no electricity. 

Father was mostly away in tours. During monsoon, Mother used to park her car at Hazarika uncles house, few houses from Tiniali, and walk muddy, raw roads to home. Much later we got electric poles and electricity. A giant house, raw bricks, massive windows. Village life. Playing with village children, paddy fields.

After dusk darkness fell. It became a place full of legends and ghosts.. 

" Don't go to the hillocks alone, it's got wild spirits" . 

"Don't roam around after dusk." Etc . 

Our maid reported many ghostly stories regularly. Neighborhood was rife with weird scary stories! It was part of  our Daily Life!! 

Amongst all of them, was the legend of Betala, a preta, hanging upside down from lonely trees. 45 years later, when I do the math.. Beltola - L = Be-tola= Be-tala. 

But THEN... when all was Dusk and haunted. NOT NOW... the densely crowded, high towers, high priced real estate it's become... 

And the beautiful crafted Bat statue, not from anyone,of my Delhi or Global friends or clients regularly romping through the world. But from a client, a resident.. from an inner by lane in Beltola.. 

...Yeah!! 🔥🔥🔥🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼!! 

Prologue

My friend Egghead send me pics as he visited his childhood hometown in Golaghat. A 100 year old priniting press, vintage cars, a 100+ year old bicycle, his childhood primary school established in 1886...Still running. 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

...It's as Retrograde as it gets..

🙏🏼🙏🏼Jai Shanidev🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼