Saturday, November 14, 2015

Log 05: After Paris resurrection

In a previous post Log-04:My-Saturnine-film-After-Paris I talked about my personal journey of resurrection narrated in my first ever and autobiographical film After Paris. But, as time unfolds, my personal experience may have relevance to current global events. The journey of recovery and resurrection in the film, may be emotionally relevant for the survivors of the bloodbath in the Parisian streets, and similar survivors of other catastrophe  throughout the world.

I once showed my film to my aunt who's surviving the death of her loved son, my beloved cousin and friend . She could strongly connect to my personal story and it gave her some succor from her ocean of sorrow. I hope, similarly my film can provide some succor for the victims of the Paris attack, and other survivors of personal loss, crashdown and breakdown. 

Monday, July 13, 2015

Retro 2015-24: Ultra Retro: Paris Reversed 02

Dear friends, as discussed in the previous post, since the Paris trip of Ultra Retro 2009, in all the preceding years, the last week of the Ultra Retro period, the final concluding week of the 4.5 month long Saturn Retrograde, has always represented the inverse, inverse, redemptive, karmic recompense, shadow, of that fateful, windfall Paris trip. In fact, every year, my last concluding posts of Saturn Retrograde, always end under the title of Paris Reversed. Even after actually having created my first full length film on that Retrograde trip, and the hangover thereafter, the last week of Ultra Retro, the comprising the very last Retro energy period, and concluding week of annual 4.5 month Saturn Retrograde itself, will be maybe forever celebrated/ mourned or ritually observed by myself as a period of acute karmic redemption, and regression. As a personal testimony of the error and misappropriation of Saturnine energies, during the acute and intense Ultra retro period. When, a Saturnine ruled person should officially regress, and acutely rewind, the gross violation of moving forward, or indulging in "quantum leaps/ breakthroughs".
And, even as I thought the last so many uncountable posts were enough, the raw physical force of saturn Retrograde, the sheer force of physical circumstances, compel me to type out the words on this keyboard, and post the posts on Saturn retrograde.

Paris Reverse: Today's 13th July, the 18th day of Ultra Retro phase, of Saturn Retro. On the 18th day, of Ultra Retro 2009, I was fully mobilised, empowered, and moving around Paris. Having crossed over, my initial days of hesitation and recitation, I had become completely at home in this strange new city. And, today as a reversion, find myself crippled, paralyzed at my home ground. A truck accident at Panchsheel flyover completely jammed the Outer Ring road, and traffic was brought to a long standstill. I had get down from the auto-rickshaw, take a Metro to Malviya Nagar stop, then take a rick to the edge of Jahapanah forest, where the bottleneck again began, and walk across the forest short cut back to home. In all my ten years in Delhi, in this area, I have never witnessed such a acutely paralytic traffic bottleneck. Back home pending, mundane, household, problems rapidly transforming into meaningless arguments and energy sapping conflicts, rapidly descended my spirit to an all time low, moon in the gutter kind of feeling. And exact reverse of the rush of exploration, adventure, adrenalin of exploring an utterly magical, and romantic city as Paris itself. The anti gravity, magically buoyant feeling, floating head-rush has aptly transformed into a clogging, filthy drain, a gutter, a rotting pile of festering human heap of  the most utterly, ridiculous meaningless, mundane garbage of human existence!!
Louvre Reversed; On the 17th day of Ultra Retro 2009, namely 29th April, 2009, I had visited the great global Art lanmark of the Louvre museum. I was roaming

Retro 2015-23: Ultra Retro: Paris Reversed

Dear friends, we're at the final phase of Saturn Retrograde, 2015. Check graph above, the red hot Ultra Retro phase, this season is from 26th Jun to 17th of July. During this phase, there is a tremendous boost of Solar/ rajasic energies. Making this an exceptional window for breakthrough for Sun, Mars, Pitta, Rajas ruled people. And thus, a very acute period of regression, redemption, and rewind for all Saturn ruled people. Check page header: Saturn Retrograde

 In my initial years of research on Saturn retrograde, I had discovered that most of my major life events, all the major forward/ breakthrough events of my life were all during Saturn retrograde. Because of which, they never persisted in the long run, or as time passed, were a source of great headache, karmic redemption, sorrow and regret. However, as I gradually being using the periods of Saturn retrograde, for karmic clearing, regression, review, karmic repayment, once Saturn went directional, it showered me with various breakthroughs, openings, developments, over the year.

One such, landmark event, happened in the Saturn retrograde of 2009. From 2005 onwards, even after my increasing awareness of Saturn Retrograde, I had found many life changing events persistently continuing to take place during Saturn Retrograde. And, once retrograde ended, it was followed by vast seasons of regression and exile. This continuing semi conscious violations of Saturn retrograde continued until the landmark Saturn retrograde of 2009.
The first 2.5 months of Increasing/ Rising Retro found me back in Mumbai, getting my missing marksheets and graduation certificates from my college. I had got admitted into Sir J.J. College of Architecture during Saturn Retrograde of 1993, and here I was getting my complete certificates 11 years after I had passed out!! If that I was not enough, I plunged into a condensed, booster, training programme of archtectural training under my classmate and friend for a quantum breakthrough into architecture. Which, as the months unfolded became the classic retrograde German invasion of Russia during the cold Russian winter. Later as I returned to the home base of Delhi, during the month of Falling Retro, a lot of discussions and debates were underway about me accompanying my wife on her official work trip to Paris, as it would be a sudden windfall trip to an ultimate destination. And alas, I the great teacher of Saturn Retrograde theories, completely overlooked, that the Paris trip was perfectly and suspiciously scheduled on the final,  zenith days of Ultra Retro, namely the very concluding, peaking, Mount Everest apex of Saturn Retro 2009. And as it was Falling Retro, some Saturnine energies were still around, and I had quite some insight that I should maybe desist, but, as they say, Ketu Hetu Harai, meanings Ketu makes one lose theior senses, and ultimately I agreed to the undeserved Paris TRip. And the progressions, tickets, etc, etc went ahead.
On the very first day of the Ultra Retro period, my then astrologer guru T.N Sarma, passed away on his heavenly abode. The person, who has taught me all my astrological secrets, especially the physics and dynamics of Saturn Retrograde, had himself passed away on the very first day of Ultra Retro. As the days unfolded, I somehow couldn't even make it back to hometown Guwahati for his Swardha, ceremnoial ceremonies. And since the tckets were made, I went on ahead with the Paris Trip of ultra, zenith, solar, peaking, final days of Saturn Retro, 2009.
What happened after that? Many, many, many, not so nice things. And the effect continued for many preceding years, before I could reverse the error with and equivalent amount of regression, to balance out things. But, one thing is that the efforts of those years of redemption, culminated in my first movie After Paris, which despite being about many things, is personally my artistic expression about the Saturnine persons experience of Saturn Retrograde. And, now and forever, the final concluding days of Saturn Retrograde, namely it's 21 day Ultra Retro period, is completely conjucnt and synonimous with my landmark Paris trip of 2009. And my movie, After Paris.
And I have written many, many posts over the years where I equated the events of Ultra Retro as a significant recompense, direct symbolic inverse of the Paris Trip, 2009. Here, I'm giving some links..

This year Ultra Retro 2015
Few days before the Ultra Retro phase commenced, I told Dipankar Roy Karmakar, my energy guide, that someone known to me always passes away during this period. And, he told me that I should now reverse that pattern, break that ensuing pattern. And that's what almost happened, my sister sms'd on the very first morning of 26th June, that our close family friend Rupak was hospitalised in ICU, in GNRC due to severe chest pains. As the days unfolded, and he was finally released. But later, as the chest pains, rebounded with great intensity and my sister decided to take a call an got him to AIIMS, New Delhi, for a thorough check up. One thing led to another, and finally we got him admitted into ICU of emergency, where he was detected with water in the pericardia area ( surrounding the heart) due to tuberculous infection. Later as one and half litre of  water was removed from the area around his heart, the doctor told us, he could collapsed anytime, in the past few days. But because of various specific prayers, as guided by my energy guide Dipankar, he crossed the danger line, and by the blessings of the divine mother, he recieved a prompt, superb and proactive medical response from the great doctors of AIIMS.
The Past few days, since last Saturday, 4th of June, I have been mostly in AIIMS hospital campus, alternating with my sister in her shifts. In the last two days, we did get an attendant Vijayan to stay for the night. Reminded me of my father's total knee joint replacement (TKR) surgery in July 2009, at AIIMS, at AB-1 Ortho Ward. It was a long drawn out month affair. Which immedeatly followed after the return from the Ultra Retro Paris visit, in May '09. In fact from June itself, my father and sister reached Delhi, and the consultations with AIIMS doctors began. It took six years of Karmic balancing, but this year, Saturn Retro 2015, the AIIMS event has finally shifted it's energy from 2009, and finally occurred directly in the period of Ultra Retro itself. As how it was meant, in my Saturnine world. I am glad for the healing intervention of my energy guide Dipankar said, allowing the post Saturn retrograde, of the AIIMS event, to be finally shifted, reoriented, rescheduled to it's scheduled Saturnine timing in the cosmic order of things. Enabling me to finally override, balance out, neutralize the cosmic imbalance of Ultra Retro 2009.
Glory be to the Divine mother, who has the power to modify the unfolding patterns of Kaal/ Time, itself. And, as i repeat hundred times, in the corridor shot of After Paris... Jai Shanidev!!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Retro 2015-23: my retrograde film After Paris

Dear friends, this is my 23rd post on annual Saturn retrograde, 2015. In uncountable posts, I have written in detail about the theoretical dynamics of Saturn retrograde, but today, I want to share a direct emotional expression of this phase. Today, I want to talk about my frozen film After Paris, which is a seeding, result, cause, origin, of  Saturn retrograde for me. And on past one month of retrospection, I feel it utterly expresses the emotional experience of  Saturn retrograde, especially from the Saturn ruled/ Saturnine perspective.

As explained in uncountable posts before and especially my page header: Saturn Retrograde, Saturn retrograde is a period for moving ahead for pitta ruled, Sun, Mars, Ketu ruled people, and a period of retrospection, regression, retrograde for Saturnine people. It's a time for brooding, stasis, static, frozen energies. And, After Paris is all about that static, brooding, heavy energy of entropy, ennui, hangover, gravitas, lethargy, contemplation, retrospection, regression that is characteristic of Saturn retrograde.

Primarily, the movie, maybe my first and last, is about my deep seated hangover, after a sudden, windfall, trip to Paris, during the peak,  concluding three weeks, the Ultra Retro phase, of Saturn Retrograde. In Ultra Retro period, Saturnines are supposed to be in a state of redemption, regression, hibernation, and stasis. But conversely, through opportune circumstances, I made a great quantum leap, a sudden windfall magic trip to Paris, in the Ultra Retro phase of Saturn Retro, 2009. The residual hangover, of which has persevered for me, across the expanse of uncountable seasons.

And, it was many years later, when my cousin Sangram Gautam took the residual footage of my 20 min film, and took it forward, we began shooting to complete it into a 30 min. But Sangrams visuals knocked at lurking emotions in my underbelly, that we and finally ended up in a full length film of 90 mins, a perfect depiction of Retrograde energies. If this is the first and last film I end up making, and if NO ONE ends up watching it, it would still leave some deep seated satisfaction for me. For it physically, graphically, and cinematically expresses the most widespread, universal, most repeating personal experience of my life. The experience of exile, entropy, alienation, isolation, ennui, the hallmark of retrograde energies.

And, in the past almost one month of gap from writing posts, I felt the hangover of this frozen movie pouring all over me. It's frozen images, depiction of deep stasis, coincide with my current experience of Saturn Retro 2015. I thought, give it a rest, from blogging, but a month later, it was too much. The piling mountains of gravitas, of retrograde energies, have compelled me with this outburst about my frozen, quite unseen movie After Paris.

This movie is about my journey, not only in THIS life, but also previous lives. A guy who was once ruled by Pitta, Sun, Mars, Ketu energies in previous incarnations, violated them severely, and now, was seeking redemption through the catharsis, window period of Saturn retrograde. That's the basic story of my life, across the continuing span of many lifetimes!!
Only through the pullback, regression, withdrawal, retrospection mandatory to all Saturnines, during Saturn retrograde, could I ever hope to crawl out of this mess, this piled up garbage heap of many pending lifetimes.

And, at this hour on intense retrograde, what better time than now, to truly express the (retrograde) story of my life. Why I am, the way I am at 41 years, today, still. Frozen, in time, in stasis, in a coccoon of wrapped up entanglements. The movie, is a artistic and personal catharsis, a unravelling of the retrograde energies entangled with my life. My personal, astrological, karmic, story.
For, you can write and write, but a movie expresses it far more better, than you ever could hope to. For, in the unfolding process of this movie, things happened, events unfolded, that gave it shape, meaning, grammar, characters, and contents. The movie, more or less created itself out of saturn retrograde energies, I was merely the medium.

They are true, when they say, hell, heaven, paradise and damnation, all are here, on earth in this mundane physical existence. The only illusion being, we don't see the continuing journey across many lifetimes. Taking our current existence.
So, in the end I dedicate the retrograde spirit of my film After Paris, to a track by semi unknown, genius musical composer O' Bryan, especially to the haunting bass line of his song, (click the youtube link)- Soft Touch by O' Bryan.
And to the last concluding lines, from my favourite poem "An Irish Airman Foresees his Death" by W. .B. Yeats...

Nor public men, nor cheering crowds ( to spur us onwards)..
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Retro 2015-22:Revised dates

Dear friends, in many previous posts, I had posted the annual schedule for annual Saturn Retrograde as follows.. (check graph below)

However, this year's annual Saturn Retro also coincided with a window for universal Energy Clearing as announced by my energy guide Dipankar Roy Karmakar. Click link: (Log 11: window-of-clearing). And, after physically experiencing intense, cathartic, clearing experiences, that extended beyond the 26th of Jun, (my phone got stolen yesterday), I have slightly revised the annual schedule by few days, here and there. And, by which, ( check graph below), the various phases indicated in distinct colors, are neatly falling into  the months of April, May, June, and July. Especially now, that I have been initiated into energy Clearing, I can actually experience the living, breathing energy and power of the astrological phases that I write about. Even when I make errors of judgement due to mechanically, logical, statistical viewpoints, these living, breathing energies makes me experience things in their proper form, like my phone getting stolen yesterday!!! So that I may corroborate the proper current data. Super Scary, but yet, a direct testimony of the the living, breathing energy of such planetary phases!!

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Retro 2015-22:Neutral Month

Dear friends, the period from 26th May to 26th June, is what is called the Falling Retro phase of Saturn Retrograde (check above diagram). In this month, there is a considerable Neutral energy, compared to the usual energy contrasts of Saturn Retrograde. In this period, both Sun and Saturnine people are in level ground, and in relative rest. They are considerably open to influences from prevailing transits of other planets, and their personal/ internal energies. Like a car in neutral gear. Cheers to my shortest post so far..!

Monday, May 25, 2015

Retro 2015-21:Max Retro Velocity of 2015 part 2

In the previous post I was saying, how 20th, 21st, 22nd, and 25th May were the days of maximum retrograde velocity of Saturn for 2015. Today is 25th of May, from tomorrow, 26th May, the month long phase of Falling Retro, of Saturn Retrograde, commences. (check diagram below)
 Today, on this day of high solar/ rajasic energies, should be a moment of adrenalin for Sun/ Mars/ Ketu/ Pitta ruled people and a day of tremendous constricting gravitas and low for the Saturn ruled. Over the weekend, I referred a handwritten journal of mine from 2011, full of intricately detailed notes about Saturn Retro 2011. Those days we were working on a interiors turnkey of a clinic at Hauz Khaz. The project was so incredibly besotted with problems, that we were all exasperated beyond imagination. And, I found myself in a stranglehold from all sides. Then, the peak days of Rising Retro, was from 1st to 6th April, six harrowing days, of  Maximum Retrograde velocity of Saturn. After reading the scrawly handwritten notes, I discovered an interesting fact, that within the six days of Maximum Retrograde velocity of Saturn, 2011, though the retrograde velocity dipped in between those six days, but the visible effects of relief that Falling Retro brings, could only be experienced only when the last and fage end of those six days, was conclusively over. Basically, it aint over till it's Over! The days in between, when Saturn retrograde velocity had shown to plunge/ dip temporarily,  didn't reflect at all in terms of relief and release from my saturnine perspective. In fact I quote a line from my hand written journal, dated 6th April, Wednesday, the final day of Max Saturn Retro velocity for the year, 2011.. "Is today the peak/ Zenith of Rising Retro?? Cannot Pull on more, without Relief! Somethings Gotta Give!!". such were the spasms of exclamation that left my pen , in those turbulent, upheaval filled, strangulating days of that demonic project ( my last involvement in any inetriors prject, since then).
Surprisingly, on the very next day, 7th April, 2011, once Falling Retro had confirmed set in, I got a call from my friend, fellow architect Kapil, about a Vastu project, and which later over the years opened another route of repeat business opportunities for me. On the very first day of Falling Retro itself. Reading the journal has given a echo of that sentiment in my current state of experience in Saturn Retro, 2015. Annual Saturn Retrograde only merely reflects the state of Karmic energies you are carrying within yourself. And, in that respect the state of experience of saturn Retrograde, 2015 is definitely far better than Retro, 2011. But, the strangulating pressure upon one's life, limb, neck, soul experienced by Saturn ruled people during this period, is definitely equally oppressive, in the annual current affairs of things. Throughout, the weekend I was utterly confused, whether the effects of Falling Retro had commenced, because Saturday, and Sunday there was a drop in the Retrograde velocity of Saturn. But after reading the journals motes from 2011, I realise that, no it IS NOT over until 26th May, tomorrow. And though, my exasperation is not in magnitude, equivalent to the desperation fo 2011, but the exasperation is considerable. And I repeat from my words from handwritten journal, 6th April, Wednesday.. Somethings Gotta Give!!"

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Retro 2015-21:Max Retro Velocity of 2015

Today, tomorrow, and day after, 20th May Wednesday, Thursday 21st, and, Friday 22nd May, are the three days of Saturn's maximum retrograde velocity in 2015! And as usual I gathered the data and composed the chart below only by the time, max retro velocity had fully commenced, today..!! As always, at the very last minute. These three days, Saturn Retro velocity is 4:29 secants per day, after which it drops to 4:28 for two days, before one last spike to 4:29 on Monday, 25th May, before it steadily starts to drop throughout the entire month of July! Check Chart below...

16 May Sat:  Degree: 8:02:12 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:27
17 May Sun:  Degree: 7:57:45 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:27
18 May Mon:  Degree: 7:53:18 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:28
19 May Tue:  Degree: 7:48:50 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:28

20 May Wed:  Degree: 7:44:22 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:29
21 May Thu:  Degree: 7:39:53 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:29
22 May Fri:  Degree: 7:35:24 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:29

23 May Sat:  Degree: 7:30:55 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:28
24 May Sun:  Degree: 7:26:27 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:28

25 May Mon:  Degree: 7:21:59 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:29
26 May Tue:  Degree: 7:17:30 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:28
27 May Wed:  Degree: 7:13:02 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:27
28 May Thu:  Degree: 7:08:35 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:26
29 May Fri:  Degree: 7:04:09 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:25
30 May Sat:  Degree: 6:59:44 Transit Velocity in degrees- -4:25
31 May Sun:  Degree: 6:55:19

The above red colored dates of Maximum Saturn Retro velocity ensues a great amount Retrograde energy, and therefore, great breakthrough for Sun/ Mars/ Ketu/ Pitta ruled people, and constrictive, restrictive gravitas for Saturnines, like myself! Tanima Das an upcoming artist, decided to have a screening of my film After Paris on the very first day of the drop from max Saturn Retro velocity. Missed by a bredth of a hair! thank goodness for that! Ode to the Johnny Depp film of same name: Nick Of Time. Since morning have I been grappling with the data of the degrees, and finally noting down painstakingly the correct degrees from! But Tanima planned the events weeks before! women's intution!! Check: After Paris screening event by Tanima Das.
From Sunday through Tuesday, I was in Jagannath Puri to celebrate the 49th marriage anniversary of my in laws. Yesterday we returned in Air India flight which was only five hours late for a 1.5 hr journey, and we mad a landing in great dust storm. And by today, Wednesday, 21st May, I'm FULLY reinstated and completely sunk into the broiling daily grind of Delhi summer, which burned me with far more intensity because of the brief sudden round trip to and forth, from the windy sea beach heaven of Puri. Exactly like the retrograde emotion of After Paris. Completely and perfectly scheduled to experience the full grind, full force of the sheer constrictive, strangulating, vice-grip, squeeze of annual Saturn Retrograde 2015's maximum daily velocity of 4:29 for the next three days!!!!
Macro (Zoom Out) and Micro (Zoom In)
 Today's Thursday, 21st May, day 2 of three days of  retrograde Saturn's maximum backward velocity, relative to earth. In my brief one year stint in Economics, before I reappeared Architecture entrance exams for the second year, we had to study about Microeconomics and Macroeconomics, namely the small picture and and bigger picture, and where they two meet and intertwine. Today, especially since yesterday, when I get to the individual daily degrees of retrograde Saturn, the vast broad picture that assimilates years and years of historical data into it's calculations, has now begun to Zoom In into a  the smallest focused micro graphs, daily graphs of radians and secants and sub degrees of retrograde motion.
Saturation of Saturn retrograde= Suspended animation
Suddenly, we are looking at the whole picture in extreme Zoom In, looking at individual pixels of graph, of data. Especially, when these three days of Wed, Thur and Friday, when retrograde Saturn's daily velocity sticks to the constant of 4' 29", radians/ secants whatever. Yesterday was still acceleration, as it moved up from 4'28" to 4'29', but today, it remains still. Frozen, constant. There's No acceleration for Thursday and Friday, maybe there is change, but too microscopic to physically register. What matters in these three days of constant retrograde velocity is that vast Macro/ Zoom Out has converted into Micro/ Zoom In. A period, when you can actually listen to stillness of the cosmic wheel of time that are incessantly churning, either backwards or forwards! Like a ball rising up to its maximum velocity and then a pause of stillness/, suspended moment of stillness in mid air, before it begins it downwards descent. Yesterday, when I went for the second time to the vegetable vendor, to return a bunch of rotten tomatoes, I heard some passing Arabian women talking amidst themselves, in impeccable English.. ".. I have reached the point of Saturation..". That perfect verbal dialogue, kept ringing in my ears for next two hours at least. And today, I know this Saturation is nothing but retrograde Saturn's current maximum velocity. Hmm! I'll update more as these next days unfold..
The 'turn' of Sa'turn'/ The hinge
From one perspective, these three days of maximum retrograde velocity of Saturn, namely daily retrograde motion of 4'29" radians/ secants, can also be considered the hinge on which the "turn" of Saturn is constituted, Because these three days constitute the stillness/ pivotal suspended inter-phase between Saturn retrogrades increasing velocity and decreasing velocity of motion. As I explained in the earlier paragraphs, the signs, graphs, indications are in microns, the smallest of the small of things, especially for the Saturn ruled. This period of stillness is the vortex of potential of Saturn's potential force of turning. in my childhood, my dad used to bring us rubber band wound propeller powered airplanes made of balsa wood. You had to wind the propeller in the opposite direction for quite some time, Until it was taut to a maximum wound up energy. after that you released it, and threw it into air, the wound rubber band would spin the propeller and the plane would fly for sometime. a better, and more economic example is that of a mechanical clock, whose spring you had to wind up for sometime and the dials of the clocks gears, etc would be be in motion for the entire day or two. Such is the exact motion/ mechanism of Saturn retrograde. By which change is introduced into an existing system,

Friday, 22nd May 2015: day 3 of 3 days of Max Saturn Retro Velocity
Today's the 3rd day of three days of maximum velocity of annual Saturn retrograde, 2015. The peaking Sun/ Mars/ Ketu/ Pitta energies have been simply unbelievable. Yesterday, first half was quite normal, pleasant, but second half the Solar energies spiked, shook me and totally uprooted me from my groove. Followed by the entire day today, Friday, until now, 4:10 pm. The tornado like stormy whirlwind of the Sun/ Mars/ Ketu/ Pitta energies have been quite sharp and acute. Many years, on the last day of maximum velocity of Saturn retro, it begins to wane, but not this year. It's volcanic effect of energy is lasting till full strength up and until the last day itself. Not only me, but people around me are also getting boggled by this sudden spike in Pitta/ Rajas energies. And many solar ruled have been able to successfully able to utilise this special window of exceptionally boosted Sun/ Mars/ Ketu/ Pitta energies. This time, more than ever as many more people are becoming familiar with the pattern of annual Saturn retrograde and it's effects on their horoscopes!

10:39 pm, 22nd May, 2015: it has be a long winding serpentine crawl these past three months of Rising Retro phase of annual Saturn retrograde. It began with mother in laws visit at beginning of March and a trip with wife's friends to Kasauli, Himachal Pradesh, and has and concluded with a brief trip to seaside Puri, Jagannath temple to celebrate  in laws 49th anniversary. this entire trip began with a trip to mountains, snow, and three months later ended with a trip to seashore. And, in between was hundreds of layers of catharsis, expurgation, conflicts and ordeals. And, today I have reached the tether end of this three month long annual retrograde odyssey. Most of my fervent writing oozes out during retrograde, effortlessly. Now, today, I feel like a toothpaste tube, squeezed till the last drop! Like a rubber band, wound up to it's extreme tensile squeeze. This writings on my blog are but my offerings to Shanidev during this regressive period of retrograde. Inward reflections, ponderings and meditations.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Retro 2015-20:Karmic Regressions, Ketu lands 02

In the previous post: I wrote how this current accelerated period of Saturn Retrograde is a period of high Karmic regression, especially through Ketu dominated for me. For none other reason but the fact in prior lives I had abused Ketu energies to a great degree (check earlier post, and illustration: My Ketu Faces). In the vedic mantra to Ketu it reads:

Palasha Pushpa Sankasham Taraka Graham Mastakam Raudram Raudratmakam Ghoram Tam Ketum Pranamamahyam.. meaning. I offer my obeisances to the violent and fearsome Ketu, who is endowed with the potency of Lord Shiva. Resembling in his complexion the flower of a Palasa plant, he serves as the head of the stars and planets..
It's like passing through a volatile marsh full of great fluctuations. Like the inter phase between mitosis and meiosis of cell division? Between beginnings and ends? A grey zone of extreme stagnation, yet extreme volatility. Is this the Grey zone of Ketu from which the universe arose? Generally, whenever we imagine existence before creation, before the big bang, I visualize a space of empty, black nothingness. But as Slavoz Zizek says in his book The Indivisible Remainder, that empty, black nothingness was not the preceding state before creation, BUT rather, a grey ambivalence,  a grey full of turbulent flux, of the real and unreal, of existence and non existence, of pure stagnation and chaotic movement. A grey flux full of turbulent primal drives! In his book, Zizek talks about Schelling who talks about the beginning of the universe: ...Prior to the creation of the world, there is the chaotic, psychotic universe of blind drives. Their rotary motion, their undifferentiated pulsating. And the World is created when the word is pronounced which represses/ negates, this self enclose circuit, this vortex of primal drives..
As creation of the universe commenced, this grey undifferentiated pulsating vortex, began to divide into darker blacks, and brighter whites, the yins and yangs, regulated stillness and movement, cause and effects that govern our dynamic moving universe. Prash Trivedi in his book on Rahu Ketu, connects Ketu  to the first ray of creation. And this ray must have definitely arisen from this smokey greyness of flotsam and jetsam, a state of terrible uproar and yet unimaginable stagnation. The mother goddess of Ketu is Dhumavati, the smoky one, who represents the void that existed before creation started. She represents the backdrop of the universe itself. And, today I realise that this primordial void, that existed before the universe was not black and empty, but rather a violent, turbulent, smoky grey, a grey full of turbulent flux full of turbulent primal drives. The heart of Ketu. The cosmic uncertainty of the universe. the indivisible remainder!!

Anyways, on the personal front, the dehydration that I'm experiencing seems to be reducing, but ver very slowly, as indicated by the gihly energy clearing regression of this phase.
 ( to be contd..)

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Retro 2015-19:Karmic Regressions, my Ketu pasts

This post is in continuation from the previous two posts on Sun's current annual transit through Aries and how it has accelerated the Solar energies of Saturn retrograde by 200%. So this is a very powerful period for all Sun, Mars, Ketu, Pluto, Rajas, pitta ruled people. Best example is Sun, Mars, ruled Salman Kahn getting bail yesterday from his long pending case (check link: Also check Salman Khan's horoscope: (astrosage horoscope of salman-khan).

Salman Khan is Aries ascendant, with yogakaraka Mars double exalted in Capricorn in 10th house, and yog-karaka Sun in Sagittarius. Even though Saturn is great in 11th house in Aquarius, but it's a natural malefic for Aries ascendant, and he goes the Sun, Mars, Ketu, Pluto way. However, since Saturn is also directional, and in the best house 11th house, in it's own sign Aquarius, so because of saturnine influence, he will get negative feedback from entire nation ruled by Capricorn, because of his this very breakthrough in the legal case. This flipside/ phenomenon I have seen repeating in all Sun, Mars, Ketu, rajas, pitta ruled people who have Saturn in 11th house (karmic credits, blessings) like Salman Khan.

Also, my energy healing guide Dipankar-Roy-Karmakar added that this period has a significant energy clearing window, for all uptil the 15th of May, (check my in my Energy Clearing blog: Log 11: Window-of-clearing-till-15th-may. ). So this super significant period is a overwhelming  window for those Saturnine ruled like myself for Karmic regression of great magnitude. Below, I narrate my personal saturnine experiences of Karmic Regression of this years special/ boosted/ accelerated period of annual Saturn Retrograde uptil the 15th of May.

In my own horoscope, I'm Libra ascendant, (Tula Lagna), and Saturn and Ketu are conjunct in my  9th house of Dharma, Karma, fate, destiny, spirituality in the sign of Gemini. Since karmic, serpentine, Ketu is totally debilitated in Gemini, my 9th house, it indicates acute afflictions and challenges because of past life karmic violations. And, Saturn being the benefic lord of 4th and 5th house, chooses to give his blessings of relief, release, relaxation through 9th house activities of spiritual activities, karmic healing, energy clearing, etc. As we know, amongst all planets the motion of Sun and Moon are permanently forward, and that of Rahu Ketu are permanently retrograde. Hence, when Saturn is retrograde for 4.5 months in a year, it completely merges with the flow of the permanently retrograde Ketu. Hence, Saturn Retrograde becomes a natural window for Karmic Regression, and repayment. So that once Saturn becomes directional, I can explore the other planetary opportunities, gifts, potentials, and  of my horoscope. Especially the supernatural accelearaated Karmic Regression of this years special/ boosted/ accelerated period of annual Saturn Retrograde uptil the 15th of May.

My energy healing guide Dipankar-Roy-Karmakar had mentioned before, that this period, especially of the past three weeks would find me experiencing Karmic regression, repayment connected to Ketu, an acute planets of Karmic debts for me. For more than a decade,  I had already performed various worships, rituals, pujas, etc, etc connected with Ketu, but now, in this accelerated period of Karmic Regression, I could expeerience direct physical manifestations of the Ketu energies. Ketu ruled situations from previous incarnations directly manifested in my physical existence.

Ketu is that it is pitta/ fire ruled, in a extreme way. In fact it's fiery nature can be said to be a combination of Sun and Mars, which both are fiery pitta ruled planets. Prash Trivedi in his book on Rahu Ketu compares the ferocity of Ketu to a desert at hot summer noon. No wonder then, this time in Delhi summer heat, I'm completely dehydrated and out of commision! And this time, the dehydration ( a common problem with me) has reached proportions of great magnitude.
Another thing i noticed, that our massive barsati terrace overlooking greenery, park, trees, amidst the urban centre of GK II, which is a source of joy and wonder, to all throughout all seasons, has become, especially this year, s a source of hot burning concrete expanse, a source of the marauding, soul disintegrating, blind heat, in the summer season. And guess which direction this terrace is? South East. Check Diagram below. Check the right hand, bottom corner, between the South of Mars, and East of Sun, is two most furious planets corresponding to Agni.. Pluto and Ketu!!!
Meanwhile, I was watching random movies in my dazed, dehydrated stupor of this heat. In both  Avatar and The_Men_Who_Stare_at_Goats and Conan_the_Barbarian_(2011) was common actor who does martian, patriarchal, military, villainous roles character actor Stephen_Lang. And then when i watched Mel Gibson's Apocalypto , the arch villain Zero Wolf in pursuit of the fleeing Kjaguar Paw, the sign was unmistakbel. All these characters, fierce, angry, martial, patriarchal, old guards, revenge incarnate expressed the true nature of planet Ketu...

In my Nadi palm leaf readings in Kerala, in my past life I was a martial, kshatriya warrior in Kutch desert area, Gujarat. I was very powerful, bloody, revengeful, and terrifying desert warrior. I oppressed many and caused uncountable damage, until the curse of all brought me to my downfall. From then onwards, I got guidance from a sage and led a pious life full of service and redemption. Because of the end period, I accumulated enough good blessings to be born in a good family, good education etc, but all those sins of past lifes demand karmic clearing and neutralisation.
I'm surprised that in this dehydrated, Delhi "desert heat" Ketu period, the avatar of my past life incarnation has manifested in physical appearance through random movies I'm watching. But this journey energy healing under Dipankar had already prepared me for it, to be observant and understand the signs. Ultimately, our OWN demonic acts returns as DEMONIC retribution in our current life. Yet, nature gives us an window for the reparation of this damage! Cheers to this regressive window of Saturn Retrograde! Jai Shanidev

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Retro 2015-18:Sun's monthly transit thru Aries-02

This is a follow up/ continuation from the earlier post on the continuing topic of Sun' current monthly transit through Aries:, and how it has accelerated the current Saturn retrograde energies. And how my energy guide Dipankar-Roy-Karmakar uploaded a post announcing this period as a energy clearing window for all uptil the  15th of May before the  Sun finally moves out of Aries. Continuing my updates.

My lightest of posts will now, inevitably end up heavy, serpentine, round about, and layered. This is a direct function of the super high Solar energies abounding around. Because, in my birth chart the Sun is in the 12th house of wastage/ karmic debts/ loss/ dissemination, and that too conjoined with Mercury, the lord of intellect, writing and communication. Hence, the necessary and mandatory state of affairs. in the words of W. B Yeats  in his poem, the Second Coming...
    Turning and turning in the widening gyre
    The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
    Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
 As I have described in detail, in the earlier post, confirmed by Dipankar's energy prediction, such should be the effect around, now. At least before 15th May. What was once only restricted to the narrow/ particular and Saturnine, is seeming to have some universal energy implications for all.

Yesterday I hastily landed at Siri Fort to  to meet up with my friend Tuhinabha Majumdar whose National award winning film Story of Binodini was being screened in this special screening: ( click link: National Awards screening at Siri Fort ). I had the pleasure of watching the film with my friend the director. The film was based on the autobiographical book by theatre artist Binodini who is exploited since childhood, and throughout her existence, she sacrifices her entire life for the Bengal theater, without any recognition. This was a kind of time warp for me, as when my energy guide, Dipankar started his energy healing process with me in November 2014, the journey commenced with indications of pitra dosha, in connection to my great grandfather, my paternal grandmother's father. Later after much asking around from our Jorhat relatives, whom I found out to be a priest,  who amongst other services, performed the main puja/ worship for the Jorhat theatre at that time!!
Watching the agonizingly, brooding, visceral, personal testimonies of Binodini's character, behind the golden limelight of the theater stage, amongst being a sheer visual delight for me, also created a great bone shaking, haunting, testimony of  unknown residues from an ancestral past, whose legacy of probable, unexpressed, unresolved testimony, often rattled my bones inexplicably in my own personal journey of film and music. The imagery, depth, physical, tangibility of such residual testimony was brought alive by by Tuhinabha in an extraordinary visual texture, which consisted layers of characters, who intertwined with magical lyrical cyclic, and their accurate imagery authenticated the periodical tapestry. And seeing such images onscreen, in their full mutli layered hues (both spatial and in terms of times) gave me a strange sensation, as if a deeply fossilized and hidden knot/ entanglement, somewhere hidden deep within my within my belly, was uncoiling itself in some strange relief of catharsis, liberation, that comes from expression. Somewhere, writhing within the intertwining coils of my DNA, my own inherited bloodstream, there are grey areas of lineage, inheritance and influence of a distinct ancestral period. Visibly evident in own personality, as even though I'm an Architect by education, just guess, what I do in life...  astrology, vaastu, films and music.. Amen!!

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Retro 2015-17:Sun's monthly transit thru Aries

Dear friends one thing I always repeat in all my blog posts and life, especially during Saturn Retrograde, is that I find astrological inferences at the fag ends, tail ends of transits. The current fixed annual monthly transit of Sun through Aries 14th April to 15th May, in it's most EXALTED and annual powerful position has been completely overlooked by me. And even though from Bihu, 14th April onwards, I had noticed a sidereal, peripheral burning, which has by now become full oven roast, had been completely overlooked by me, as the Annual monthly transit of sign through Aries, it's sign of maximum exaltation! ESPECIAALY, from 14th April to 30th April is the annual rising SUN period of the Sun! Which will boost the current Saturn retrograde effect by at least 200% for these 15 days! From 30th April as Sun cropsses 15 degress/ mid heaven/ mid zenith of Aries the shakti/ rajasic/ pitta qualities will slwoly subside. But for now it's roasting time.
Make the most of the next few days Sun, Mars, Ketu, Shakti, rajas ruled p[eople.
And Saturnines kindly crawl under any rock that you still manage to find... :P

Personal Updates: (Under personal updates I update personal inputs after I have posted links and all, so hardly anyone gets to to see it , unless I mention it on facebook astro separately. later someone's browsing). )  
 29th April, Wednesday: today the Sun is transiting from 14 degrees aries to 15 degrees, it's degrees of maximmum exaltation throughout the entire annual year. Today the Sun is the most powerful in the entire year. So today's in a way, a peak for all Sun, Mars, Ketu ruled people, especially Aries, Leo, Sagittarius, ascendants. For this exaltation of Sun in Aries is occurring in a mool Trikona sign (1st, 5th and 9th house). For Libran ascendants like myself it's in 7th house of Aries, directly opposing the self Libra, Sun's direct gaze directly at Libra it's sign of maximum debilitation. As I always repeat myself challenge planetary transits are ideals for energy clearing. Since morning I got thwarted from two trips, first accompanying my friends parents on their daily radiation at Rajiv Gandhi Cancer Institute at Rohini. Later because of a last minute hitch couldn't accompany my wife for her site trip  at Noida. Twice, since morning, due to some last minute hitch failed to set out of home itself. Sun is at 14 degrees 36 minutes at Aries, at this hot noon, 12: 52 pm. Rising up to it's apex/ zenith of 15th degree at Aries. Crawling up inch by inch. I utilized the home-by-default time to clean up pending junk, sort out my long pending junk in cupboards, desks etc, because the energy of this roaring burning Sun energy can be perfectly utilised by all Saturn ruled people like myself, for clearing up long pending piled up messes.

 29th April, Wednesday, 1:05 pm, Sun at 14'36" at Aries, reaching max exaltation at 15 degree by evening: Another thing I'm experiencing while writing this post is that I can't even select the usual font colour of expression, which is automatically set in the settings.But that only lays testimony to this annual rise to the peak of the Sun's max exaltation in Aries. since past few days this rising Sun in Aries has gaused deep regression in my Saturnine self. I could regress back into crossed over pasts with effortless ease. Even the dreams were overloaded with scenes from crossed over pasts, BOTH remembered and not remembered. The turbulence in my seventh house, which is Aries, has also not been small, in fact been of Titanic proportions due to no apparent reason. Such waves only lay testimony to the power of planets in our personal human experience, and the necessity of understanding their phases as the path to one's personal human energy clearing and evolution. Inch by inch, blow by blow I'm being able to narrate this half degree climb of Sun to its max exaltation peak. What else is there to do with such energy transits? Except be still, and observe and report. Damn I had recorded a movie Observe and Report on Tata Sky, but deleted it later without even watching it. Currently, as the words unfold, I feel for me this Sun peak is all about internal affairs, being stationary, observations, archiving, but also combined with rupture, upheaval, tumult and getting completely knocked off balance. I hope my Sun, Mars, Ketu, Jupiter ruled friends are making the most of this phase. In fact, lot of them are doing so too, as I mentioned in previous posts. 

Cocooning phase of Saturn Retrograde
One major phenomenon I find repeating during Saturn retrograde is that one can only begin to understand, perceive retrograde notes/ posts DURING retrograde. The very energy of the time frame changes. Once Saturn Retrograde ends, I become someone else, something different. Adim of Saturn (Rx) cannot fathom Adim of Saturn directional, and vice versa. It's a annual cocooning phase!! Mandatory for the annual development and unfolding from karmic perspectives. And the test subject here in this case in one's own self!

30th April, Thursday, 9:31 pm, Sun at 15'55" at Aries:  Since yesterday the Sun has coursed through the span of 14 and 15 degrees of Aries.  The final climb from 14 degrees to the maximum exaltation of the Sun, the solar zenith at 15 degrees of Aries.  Yesterday unfolded a long harrowing day where after the previous post, I found walking in the hot sun across our Savitri theatre complex where a fire had broken and whole roads were jammed beyond belief. Later, I was with my friend Susmit, throughout Patparganj, Noida accompanying him on his official friends. Guzzling whatever cold juice, shikanji, etc , I could find on the way. Later we landed up at his place where I collapsed like a bloated whale! The blazing Sun at 15 degrees Aries was inflaming everything, especially those Saturnine ruled. With the force of max supernova Solar blaze that only Sun in Aries can express. Especially in this period of Saturn Retrograde' 2nd gear/ orange phase (check previous posts). 
After 10 pm, when the Sun finally crossed post/ beyond the zenith of 15 degrees of Aries, the effects of the slightest drop was immediately felt by me, Susmit and i paused to buy ice cream for cousin Shivam's surprise/ planned birthday party. He was thirty years and we had a great gathering after a long, long time. And partied really late into the night. 
Today as the Sun coursed through the 15 degree, woke up with terrible hangover yet woke early, and found myself stranded by a taxi, bus,  rickshaw strike. Finally paying double the fare, reached hungover, ghoulish, and accompanied my firmed parents to our regular radiation at Rajiv gandhi Canacer institute at Rohini. Later, after returning I visited two temples for the Thursday's Jupiter dawn karma. The day went by, crawling through 15 degree, as I am completing this post, the Sun must have entered 16th degree of Aries, thankfully. However the solar blaze of Sun in Aries will hold strong from 8 degrees to 23 degrees Aries. Hence sloping upwards in a blazing trail from 23rd April Thursday to today 30th April, Thursday. And then, from today onwards sloping downwards slowly until next Friday, 8th of May. During this period, I'm also getting a lot of anger, rage, indignation, tensile brooding wrath, coursing through my blood. But these bouts do thankfully subside over few hours. And also spasms of anxiety, dread, fear and apprehension. That's the effect of 12th house natal sun!

3rd May, UNIMAGINABLY SURREAL SOLAR ENERGY:  Since the above paragraph/ update on Thursday, a lot of Sun/ Mars/ Ketu ruled people have got unimaginable breakthrough in these past three days. As the Sun continued through the mid-heaven of Aries, the exalted Solar energies have somehow, uunimaginably magnified the Saturn Retrograde to a surreal level. Many Sun/ Mars/ Ketu ruled people around me has got unimaginable results beyond their wildest expectations, and that have completely zapped me far beyond my own astrological expectations of them, and totally bedazzled their near and dear ones. BUT ALSO, at the same time, I saw many people change from Sun ruled to Saturnine, DURING this very Retrograde season! They were caught in the metamorphosis that long pending karma often creates in some Saturn Retro seasons. And on the other hand, Saturnine ruled like myself had to face a surreal level of pressure to stray from the Saturnine path. In one of the conversation with my energy healing guide Dipankar, he said he was so glad that I connected with him on November 2014, and since then have continued on the energy clearing path. Otherwise the surreal solar energy  of this period would have completely blown me away. Like a kite whose string is cut off!!  Even as I write this, I feel the unimaginable tug, pull push of the Solar waves within me. Creating a topsy turvy churning in my blood.
 Because our blood holds our life force, the seat of our DNA code. And intense planetary transits can cause this unimaginable churning in our bloodstream itself. For the Sun/ Mars/ Ketu this unimaginable churning in the bloodstream during this current time is an opportune period, a legitimate and endorsed call of the wild. But for the Saturn ruled, Saturnine like myself, it's the call of Dracula himself...  :P

5th May, Tuesday, Dipankar's prediction of Karmic Window until 15th May:   
Over the past few days my healing guide Dipankar-Roy-Karmakar had shared about the karmic window uptil the 15th of May. The ways of cosmic energy, their windows of karmic clearing, etc, operate on a completely another level from planetary motions and transits, but definitely sometimes they connect to prevailing periods of planetary transits. And this mentioned window of karmic clearing has totally corresponded to my this/ current post, on the current motion of Sun through Aries, a sign of it's exaltation. Today morning, i had a long conversation with Dipankar about some of the knocking, shaking that I hade been experiencing for the current period since Sunday. He explained about this karmic window, and it's clearing up of our pending karmic entanglements. Previously I had been on a fit of great agitation, but Dipnakar's words suddenly lay light on the matter... I'd rather expereince knocking, shaking on this side of 15th May, than on the other! Also it corresponds to my own follow up of Sun's current motion through Aries, which concludes on the 15th of May. But from the astrological perspective, this Energy window which commences just at the end of Solar exaltation in Aries, is directly a sign of rising Saturnine energies. And whose effects, Dipankar commented, would extend far beyond the normal scope and reach of Saturn Retrograde. So this year, Saturn Retrograde 2015 is indeed a mechanism of functioning for the spiritual energy balance on earth. And, all the extra knocks and shakes coming my way is only a sign of conclusion of a long clearing journey that began on November 2014, arriving at some kind of conclusion. Topday morning, when Dipankar's phone call came, I was accompanying my friends parents at the Rajiv Gandhi Cancer Institute at Rohini, as I have, these past two weeks. And today being Tuesday was a weekly review day by the doctor. As my friends dad, complained of some aches in his neck, the doctor replied.."it's proof and indication from the body, that the therapy is working!!". Exactly, the same phenomenon like the treatment of my father in laws cancer. TB cells were inserted in the cancer area to fight the cancer cells, and urinary bleeding indicated the treatment was working. And absence of blood meant it was too far gone to register any effects. Sometimes a  calm period is just a dead calm before the storm. And, sometimes extended knocking shaking may mean a long karmic journey is coming to it's conclusion. I pray that those who are reading goes on to read the energy insight of  Dipankar's note (Click this link: Dipankars post) linkwas and begin their energy clearing process in some manner. Availing of the energy window of this opportunity of this period! Cheers! I'll follow up/ update here...

Monday, April 27, 2015

Retro 2015-16:Napoleons failures during Saturn Retrograde

Dear friends, I have kept on repeatedly repeating that annual Saturn Retrograde of 4.5 months is great period for Sun/ Mars/ Ketu ruled people and a period of regression for those Saturn ruled. Today I want to illustrate a widely discussed astrological case study to express about Saturn Retrograde. It's a normal practice of astrologers to discuss about planetary effects of the famous historical events, and turning points of human history. And one of the most famous cases is indeed about the two landmark defeats of Napoleon during Russian invasion and in the Battle of Waterloo. Today I offer you my own perspectives and diagrammatic representation of this historical case study. Especially from the viewpoint of Saturn Retrograde, 1812 and 1815. Check the two above charts for reference.

Even though in western astrology, Napoleon's birth-chart is given as Libra Ascendant, with Saturn in 10th house, from our Vedic astrological perspective he is Virgo ascendant with Saturn in the 11th house of karmic credits/ blessings. 11th house is the best place for any planet to be!! (Click link: astrosage: horoscope of napoleon-bonaparte). Like my astro guru the late T.N Sarma used to cite, Napoelon was indeed a very, very, Saturnine person. Especially with the two Rajasic planets of Sun, Mars in his 12th house of karmic debts. (I, who am maintaining this Saturn blog for years have my Sun in the 12th house too!). 

But as we see, in Chart 1, above, showing graph of Saturn Retrograde 1812, he began his long build up and final launch of Russian invasion on 24 jun 1812, when Saturn was still in the yellow/ 3rd gear phase. If he had just postponed the long awaited invasion by 1st of July, ebbing retro of one month, he would have had battery backup throughout the entire month of July!! But then he had still to cross the red/ danger period of ultra retro from 1st Aug to 21st Aug. The best period for his long invasion would have been after 21st Aug onwards..

In Chart 2, above, showing graph of Saturn Retrograde 1815, it shows his battle of waterloo smack in the middle of the orange phase/ 2nd gear of Saturn retrograde. even though his mistake of Russian Invasion was off by few days, his Waterloo Battle was directly in the middle of his worst annual period of Saturn retrograde. By the time, the planets turned better from 7th Aug, too much had already gone by. 

My astro guide T.N Sarma used to say that Saturn/ Shanidev showed a dream to Napoleon not to commence his invasion on his planned dates, but he had ignored it. And for someone like napoleon, with Saturn in the 11th house, definitely it played a significant and important role. He should have completely handed over the charge temporarily to a Sun, Mars, Ketu ruled person. Anyways, I couldn't have compiled such a loaded, layered, historical compilation, in any other period than Saturn Retrograde. With tribute to my astro guide who taught me all my invaluable insights on Saturn Retrograde, the astrological genius T.N. Sarma, who passed away on 14th April, 2009, at the peak of Saturn Retro, 2009. With tribute and gratitude.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Retro 2015-15:Solitary shakings and nationwide earthquakes

This post I have to write twice, with a bit modifications, both in my Energy Clearing and Saturn and Jupiter blog.  Last few days because of my current challenging transit of Saturn Retrograde in Scorpio I had been consulting my energy guide Dipankar for various challenges that i was facing. And especially about about some knocking, shaking that began from Thursday evening. Dipankar tolde me amongst other things, specifically about some dana karma related to Ketu and Saturn to be done on Saturday. But I expressed my reservations about that, as I have a long history of Ketu daan already, and also Saturn was beneficisl planet for me, so I feared doing any Dana karmas to lose his effects upon me. We left it that.  However, the events that followed after 24 hrs of my putting the question immediately showed me, that for people who on the Saturnine journey, unravelling unfoldings are facilitated by Lord Shanidev..

Soon, after my conversation, situations developed, and I was knocked from Munirka, to SDA, and then finally landed up at my friend Kareem's bookstore at Nehru Place. His wife and son was there, and they were staying over at her dad's place. One thing led to another, and I found myself  setting forward to their residence at Tulip apartments, at Levan, Sonepat, Haryana . On the way I crossed a giant Sri Siddh Shani Mandir, on the GT Karnal Road., which I have crossed many times while going outside of Delhi on Holidays. But never found the time nor intersection to vsist it. When one crosses it from below on the car, it's like a towering temple that looms above you. It reminds of a giant temple hill which I have been seeing in my dreams since last 22 years.

After reaching Kareems place at Tulip Grand apartments, I tried to show him my film After Paris but the Pen drive didn't load on the usb socket of the DVD, so we decided to see DVD movies. And amongst his DVD's was the film Magus, which was based on John Fowles novel of the same name. In the movie, Michael Caine is a school teacher on a Greek island whom a mysterious neighbor called Conchis, played by Anthony Quinn, pulls into a surreal and complex game. Much like another of my ever favourite movies The_Game_ starring Michael Douglas. In both the movies, the protagonist is drawn into a complex game that supersedes reality and at the end of which is unfolded by revelation and insight. In both the movies, the protagonists gets insights, understanding, wisdom but at the astronomical Cost/ Price of knowledge which is usually connected to the journey of energy healing and spiritual growth. And by cost/ price I don't mean dollars or Euros, but the high voltage turbulent and tumultuous  currency of knocking and shaking!!
Early morning, Kareem made tea at 5:30 am, and from his balcony I saw the looming, giant, goliathan flag of OP Jindal Global university. The owner Naveen Jindal was known for his giant flags in all his ventures, especially afetr his 7 year long court case with government resulting in the (Click Link): Naveen Jindal amended-flag-code. But this flag was something elses, especially shimmering in the grey haze of pre dawn. Like the wing of a massive flying reptile. Suddenly, it struck me that Flag is the symbol of Ketu. And always previously I could NEVER relate ketu with simple flags. But this Giant, goliathan, levaithan looming far above us, shimmering in the wind, looking like the wing of a giant wingspan, myabe of mythological Jatayu or Garuda. (Ketu was related with flying, aviation, and NOt Rahu as is usually mistaken for). The shaking/ tremoprs that I felt inspired great desire in me to fulfil all the daana karma previously suggested by Dipankar.

Later while returning, I went to the Giant looming, towering Sri Siddh Shani Mandir, and poured oil without any doubt. because his oil daan was one of reverence, awe, and deep mystification at this towering presence similar to my temple hill dreams of past 22 years or more. Later I fet handicapped people, beggars, children who were conveniently located around this lone, towering,  temple by the GT Karnal Highway.
I asked Kareem to drop me on the way at GK2, but he said to accompany him for tea at Nehru place. gfinally when I returned, I drooped by the Bhairav Temple, gave oil to Shanidev, and Sringar to Mahakali. Being Saturday today, there was a huge line ahead of me, but the oil pouring idol of Shanidev was separate, and because i had to give black clothe to Ketu (as is mostly practiced in North India, in contrast to the grey one we give in the East), but Ketu idol had No queue. On the way, on handicapped guy smiled at me from his vehicle, and i had opportunity to offer him some of my personal favorite Jim Jam biscuits. By the time I reached, and bathed and breakfast it was hardly 11am on Saturday morning. But the end of a long, elaborate, energy healing odyssey facilitated by the divine grace of Lord Shanidev....

BY THE TIME I update this post, the news was out: (Click link): news/world/2015/04/25/-7.5 magnitude earthquake, a 7.5 magnitude earthquake had begun in Kathmandu, then Bengal, Orissa, Bihar, Delhi, Dwarka, and so forth!! What I felt was my own solitary experience of knocking shaking for me has unfolded into a journey which was synced with the 7.5 magntiude earthquake sweeping across the nation. After my intense conversation with Dipankar, for the past 24 hrs, I was set off on a unraveling  journey. One which synced with with the mysterious energies governing planet Earth. Like some animals and birds, for once i was in sync with planet earth...

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Retro 2015-14:Dazzling Solar Talents

Today, in my 14th post on saturn Retrograde 2015, I will take a welcom break from astro theory and avail the opportunity to share the dazzling shine of some of the Sun, Mars, Ketu, Agni ruled people during this period that I'm fortunate enough to know. As I said this period is especially great for such people. Especially in terms of breakthrough, illumination, dazzle, shine, flame on, and sizzling spontaneous combustion...

First is the song/ video of my friend Lueit Parasar Hazarika based on the traffic police who serve us through rain and sun. Finally he's uploaded a complete video of his first song, especially a melody which would help the Assamese audience to connect in a heartfelt way, that runs through the blood and tears of the common man. I have enjoyed his songs and worked with him for long. But right timing for such a rupture
The next is a dark jazz verison of Nirvana's song Come As You Are by my favourite jazz singer and a friend Vasundhara Vee, who's quite popular in both Delhi, and abroad for her mellifluous numbers. In fact everyone knows Vasundhara, but THIS song oozing with oomph and sensuality and amazing jazz music, at this time should propel her to the next level that she desrves. I have only worked with her on a single ad, which never got aired. She was her ususal, comical, casual self, as always with me. But this song is sizzling.. Shine on!!

The next is a dazzling cover of my ever favourite guitar performance, a piece that I often share with most people Emotive Ballad; by Jess Lewis. What a surprise to find, one budding young guitarist Shrikant Biswakarma I know to have done his own version of it. What maturity and economy in such an unexpected young age! But only five likes on his facebook page. He definitely has young, tasteless, item song loving friends on facebook. Shine on boy, for your notes are the stuff dreams are made of...

And then, one of Sangeeta's friends Mani Padma suddenly posts a ballad on facebook The Whore Of Belisk: a ballad by Mani Padma which was awesome as I didnt even realise that such a style existed in this modern day and age! What style, eloquence, language, and phrasing. Strange is that Vasundhara writes great ballads, but she's too shy to share. Aewsoem dazzling talents of Sun, Mars, Ketu, Agni, Shakti in this Orange period of saturn Retrograde!! Cheers!

Friday, April 17, 2015

Retro 2015-13:Retrograde Films

Today's my thirteenth post on annual Saturn Retrograde, 2015. Today I want to discuss about some films that I saw currently, and in other Saturn retrograde periods, which reflect the true quality, essence, nature and characteristics of Saturn Retrograde. While watching any of them, you can actually feel the nature of Saturn retrograde, especially from the Saturnine perspective.

The magnificent, yet eerie visual spectacle of Lars Von Triers film Melancholia perfectly describes Saturn retrograde beyond any other movie in comparison. Especially the super slow motion, super static, super stagnating, opening sequence. I had already written about my personal experience of watching Melancholia in the post Saturn Retro: 2014/02/ Melancholia by Lars von Trier. Even this retrograde I couldn't help opening my selection of films by this Retrograde magnum opus, from beginning to end, both from screenplay wise, treatment, and the visual style..

The films of Tarsem_Singh reflect the static, suspended, hypnotic, floating, unworlds. There are always secnes where things are suspended in extreme potential energy looming with oozing release, explosive supernova to come. the viewer is left breathless with the impact of static energy, collossal unfolding, static energy perfectly expressing the Saturn Retrograde energies...

(to be contd).....

Retro 2015-12:Into 2nd Gear

Dear friends, this is my twelfth post on annual. By now Saturn retrograde has commenced into it's second gear / 2nd phase, (the orange arrow in the  illustration above). The energy shift of Saturn retrograde from it's 1st phase/ gear to it's 2nd phase/ gear is comparable to a car, where the explosive, combustion energy of a engine is  converted into the physical movement of the wheels by means of gears. The 1st phase/ gear, which comprise the first two weeks of Saturn retrograde is exactly like the explosive combustion energy generated in an engine. And the  2nd phase/ gear is like this energy being converted into actual physical momentum/ movement. The Energy of Saturn Retrograde can be used by Sun, Mars, Ketu, Shakti, Rajas ruled people for various breakthroughs and energy leaps. And for Saturn, Rahu, inertial people this energy manifests in the form of karmic recompense, churning, and Energy Clearing.

Personal Updates on 2nd house transit: I'm Libra ascendant (Tula lagna), and retrograde Saturn is currently transiting my 2nd house, Scorpio. I'm experiencing personal churning, in topics, issues, matters related to 2nd house, (Click link: Significance of the Second-house.) This churning is a manifestation of the energy clearing process Saturn facilitates during it's retrograde motion for those Saturn ruled.
The 2nd house relates to our own Self worth, and many events have compelled me to have constant thoughts, like: What am I worth? Am I any worth at all? Am I What is the opinion of people around me, towards me? What are the opinions of close/ related people towards me? What are the opinions of community members, of neighbors towards me? are constantly churning in my mind now. Especially thoughts of my own personal opinion of myself. How I personally perceive my own  self worth.
 The 2nd house represents the bedrock, the foundation of our physical reality, our personal existence. I'm experiencing some churning in this area too, especially defining the terms of my own ground realities, zones of stability, comfort zones, etc. The churning energy of retrograde Saturn is compelling me to question and review, various concepts, ideas, approaches which is the very foundation of, the bedrock of my physical existence. However, this mandatory churning is essential for the Saturn ruled.

Mandatory mistakes/ Compulsory madness: I was browsing through my 70 articles on Saturn retro 2013 which many of  are oozing with rabid, foaming personal narrations on the churning combustion of Saturn retrograde. Especially some are pretty graphic like: Saturn-retro-2013-47: Lionel Richie live and Saturn-retro-2013-52: Stupid Stunts!! Which, on retrospect makes me comprehend the necessary madness we have to experience, the mandatory mistakes we are compelled to make, on the journey of evolution.
Heaviness of Saturn Retrograde during 2nd gear: During this period of 2nd gear, Saturn ruled people experience great heaviness and gravitas. This is on account of  all the energy of the previous Retrograde periods temporarily reconnecting with that of the current retrograde period. Hence, the layered heaviness that Saturn ruled people experience during Saturn retrograde period.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Retro 2015-11:Retro phase 2

Dear friends, after the climactic and high voltage three weeks described in the previous post, we now move into Saturn Retrograde's Phase 2/ 2nd Gear/ Orange (check diagram above). It's like 2nd gear in a car's engine, after the rupturous period of combustion that happens in a engines during it's 1st Gear, we move into gear/ phase of lesser sparks and fires. During this 2nd gear phase, lasting throughoutthe burning, spark/ combustion is more converted into momentum. So with Saturn retrograde, this Rajasic month of April is ideal for all Sun/ Mars/ Ketu ruled people to actually begin progress, forward movement of some kind.
For Saturn ruled people: This period is to actively initiate review, and reexamination of their life structures. Reevaluate and reexamine their life paths, purposes, journeys. Time to chew the cud, mull and ponder over things in depth. And maybe look over long pending issues. An ideal time to delve into past life karmic connections and debts. Engage in past regression, reviewing long repeating life patterns in their lives. Every day in April for the Saturn ruled is a time to connect and reestablish issues from the past. Put their energy into processing bygone/ pending issues.
In previous years I have written in detail about Gravitas and Supergo for Saturn ruled people. Gravitas or heaviness is mandatory to be experienced by the Saturn ruled during this period, as this involves a deep induction of potential energy into the nervous system, personal energy aura. Highly reminds of the Kenji Mizoguchi film The_47_Ronin_(1941_film) which I saw in one of Osians film festival's special Mizoguchi revivals. The movie is based on the Japanese historical story of  the Loyal Forty Seven Ronin.  The entire movie showed out of commission Ronin soldiers in exile/ waiting/ out of structure, wandering. soldiers waiting to move into action when (ever) their time came. They spent time drinking, wasting, almost decaying. But they are always called the Loyal 47 Ronin, because they stuck to the programme, stuck to Saturnine energies. and finally, when the time came Saturn delivered the due harvests! An experience that is very analogous to  the Saturnine experience of this period.