Saturn Retro 2016-02: Commencement

Dear friends, this is my 5th consecutive year of blogging about the annual period of 4.5 months of Saturn Retrograde. This year, 2016, Saturn Retrograde is from 24th Mar- 14th Aug. For the detailed concepts on Saturn Retrograde click link: Saturn Retrograde. For previous years the links are.. click Saturn Retro 2012 (2 articles), click: Saturn Retro 2013 (70 articles), click: Saturn Retro 2014 (11 articles) and Saturn Retro 2015 (15 articles)

Today was Holi, a highly Solar festival coinciding with Thursday. And Jupiter is in Leo ruled by the Sun. Mars is in one of its ruled signs Scorpio where Saturn Retrograde is taking place. So it's a rare combination of Sun Jupiter Mars energies in today's Holi on the eve of Commencement of Saturn Retrograde 2016 from tomorrow for next 4.5 months.
Saturn ruled people like myself must have experienced this Holi as a looming void. The feeling of peering into a deep and empty well.

From few weeks prior to the beginning of Retrograde, ( as Saturn was slowly drawing to a standtill across the heavens {relative to us}), I was instinctively feeling heavy, introspective, thoughtful, complex, sluggish, layered, serpentine, complicated, eccentric, esoteric, dis-focused, hazy, cumbersome. Only today, when I created the chart above for Saturn Retro 2016, above and plotted the dates, did it struck me, I was well already into the brown Arrest phase, the Commencement, the preface of Saturn retrograde. 

As the years have unfolded, I realize that I really don't enjoy writing. Especially in this serpentine, unravelling, self narrative kind of manner. But it's the Saturn Retrograde component in myself that finds myself doing this.. writing, self dissection, self unravelling. as expressed in many previous posts, this kind of serpentine writing is nothing but a direct function of saturn Retro for me. Or rather, thye Mercurial function of writing is completely Solar/ Sun ruled for me, because Sun + Mercury lies in my 12th house of Virgo, a sign ruled by Mercury.

Like as in all other processes and functions, this process of Saturn Retrograde can be modified or somewhat tweaked by one, according to one's preferences and predispositions. and hence, I want to write some super heavy posts, layered beyond belief, when the Saturn Retrograde process is just fresh beginning, just Commencing!! 

As in Quantum physics, Heisenberg's uncertainity principle, and all other things there is always this Position and Momentum duality of a particle. at one time, you can either figure out a Position of a particle or otherwise it's Momentum, not both. So, in Saturn Retrograde I voluntarily engage in Position, or observations by lying still, rooted, retrograde or fixated at a point in space/ time. whereas, when Saturn turns directional I would always Prefer/ Choose... Momentum/ movement over all and everything else!!! 

If it was not for this Sun + Mercury in my 12th house, or 4th and 5th Lord Saturn/ Shanidev in Gemini, cojunct with debilitated Ketu, I could have been, should have been, ought to have been, a great writer. and NOT this spurtive posts on the annals and minutes on the soul transforming process of annual Saturn Retrograde of 4.5 months!!

Many a times, i think about my personal Becoming/ my life journey, from different personal, spiritual, astrological perspectives. However, as i hammer out these sentences on this dusty, homely  keyboard, i realize that (strangely) MINE story is NOT about any Becoming, but rather.. an Un-Becoming process, the purifying, cathartic process of Saturn Retrograde , so that the DEFAULT setting of my Quirky, Krazy, personality full of movement emerges! I have extricate myself,only by the purifying process of Energy Clearing and the annual period of saturn Retrograde!!

As I hammer out these words, i write in absolute speed, i.e, at the rate of which my thoughts are  emerging/ emergent! But I have reached this absolute speed, only after five years og blogging acutely and minutely about Saturn Retro. Even prior to, which, I have years and years of notes on Saturn Retro. 

 **********Some samples of retrograde writing***********

"Damn and dang!!" said the tobbaco chewing Texas cowboy, pausing to spurt some tobacco rich spittle on the dust desert ground, and then chewing a bit to make some space in his mouth to speak.. "damn and doggerty! I can only talk 'bout Saturn retrograde, and nothing elsewhile". Then, he put on his cowboy hat, and rode his horse Abner, into the Sunset, vanishing into the horizon..!  

Elijah, looked into the abyss of the well. It reminded him of his own self, his own looming decades of inactivity and wastefulness. On the old radio, the Pink Floyd song Time crackled..

" Ticking away the moments that make up a Dull day

You fritter and waste the hours  that make up the day"

"No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.."

"And then one day, you find, that, ten years have gone behind you.."

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Reading over this post, i find it askew, discoherent, talking in many tongues, layers, tangents, many lines and flights of departure. Such is the form of the Saturn ruled, in the times of Saturn Retrograde!

BUT this blog is such a Vent, DURING the times of Saturn retro! Like, a kind of phlebotomic relief for those suffering from high blood pressure.