Saturn Retro 2018: Moola (19) মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯)

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18th June, Monday, 62nd day of Saturn Retrograde, 2018. 

 Last few days, I've been experiencing the Volcanic aspect 

of the current Saturn Retrograde in Moola (19) constellation. 

For a Saturnine person like myself, it's the most natural state of affairs

to connect to this Volcanic, turbulent, smouldering energy. 

This turbulent Energy Clearing process. 

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We're 62 days into the Vortex of Saturn Retrograde, 2018

At this depth, the labyrinth has become deep, complex, visceral..

So far down.. physical laws, familiar laws warp and bend..

The ground beneath your feet shakes and erupts

the primordial, primitive volcanic lava flow

At the Root/ primordial Vortex of Moola(Dhara ) Chakra

Because current Saturn Retrograde in Moola (19) constellation.
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Hence, the Root Chakra/ Mooladhara/ Moola Nakshatra(19)/ মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯) 

Represents the Core of existence, the Volcanic Core of Magma

Reminding me of a foundation Pink Floyd Song..

Set The Controls For The Heart Of The Sun

That's what's happening in this Saturn Retro in Moola (19)/ মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯) 
A window to Set The Controls For The Heart Of The Sun

Also, to know that, at The Heart Of The Sun lies Shadow Incarnate
That is one extraordinary Karmic aspect of Moola (19)/ মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯) 
The Devil Shadow/ that lies at Core of each Angel Heart..
Exemplified by the haunting Alan Parker movie.. Angel Heart
Extraordinary Haunting roles by Robert De Niro and Mickey Rourke

(Set in the 1950s, a seedy Brooklyn private eye Harry Angel (Mickey Rourke) is hired by shady rich client Louis Cyphre (Robert De Niro) to locate a pop singer who reneged on a debt. As Harry embarks on this dark odyssey of unraveling secrets, what he finds within himself at the end of the journey is the extraordinarily Karmic aspect of Moola 19)/ মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯) .. Each one of us carries dark shadows of Karma from previous births at the  Mooladhara Chakra/ root Chakra. Represented by the Karmic aspect of Moola (19)/ মুলা নক্ষত্র (১৯) ..  Wherein the current astrological position can help us identify and release this intense Shadow inside our hearts of burning Fire/ sun.. 
..to be continued..

Saturn Retro 2018: Lost Highways

This post has continued from the previous: Saturn-Retro-2018: Necessary Meltdown

To understand this post, read this summary: Saturn Retrograde Summary

16th June, 2018, the 60th day of Saturn Retrograde, 2018. 

Yesternight, I saw David Lynch's Saturnine movie Lost Highway, yet again. The geometry of the movie is based on the the wrong turns taken, the wrong highway chosen, the wrong road upon. Even I chose to watch the movie amongst many others present on his computer, the dinner table conversation with my friends  family was about decisions not taken, wrong routes chosen due to lack of wisdom, mistakes of the past. Even before  I knew it, I was being influenced by the energy of Saturn Retrograde to contemplate upon my past transgressions. Be it from this lifetime, or previous ones. 

After finishing the movie at around 2am, I still couldn't sleep, as a thousand overloaded images from different periods of life  swarmed me. The visuals of my many uncountable transgressions, especially during the Saturn Retrograde period, wherein, instead of the Saturnine tradition of redemption, recompenses, regression, and contemplation for past mistakes, wrong choices made, Wrong Highways taken, I foolishly  took the energies for forwarding my life through Quantum breakthroughs. Which is completely restricted for those whose Saturn is malefic/ negative in their horoscopes. 

Wherein, like the movie Back To The Future 

there was a narrow window when lightning struck the clock tower, 

and the professor could have the necessary electrical energy burst 

to activate his time machinery and send his protege into the past.

For Saturn Retrograde is an window in time, given to us Saturn ruled, to move backwards in time, to open those long shutdown files of history, those long crossed highways, from yesteryear, where  the fate of our current/ present was being shaped. If we cannot utilize it, we lose out on the narrow window of energy change that Saturn Retrograde affords us. 

On a rainy night in September, I remember not which exact year

Few days before the Saturn Retrograde season commenced

 I was traveling on the Highway, late at night, on my scooter

with a ghostly friend, an oracle of doom sitting behind

Just after having watched David Lynch's Blue Velvet

Then suddenly, in the dark rain and muddy road

The Truck ahead, slowly leaned, and toppled over

Like a fallen Tower, a crumbling glacier in slo-mo

The sudden terror gave us signs of things to come??

We, crawl out stopped on this rainy, muddy Lost Highway..

watching the driver, handyman emerge, crawl out 

I remembered the Doom patrol story/ sub series

..Crawling From The Wreckage..

Portent Sign of Things To Come..???

Saturn Retro 2018: Necessary Meltdown

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To understand this post, read: Saturn Retrograde Summary 

9th June, 2018, the 53rd day of Saturn Retrograde, 2018. 

As explained, Saturn Retro is a period of rising Sun..
And Saturn Retro 2018 coinciding with the current Summer/ June, heat wave 
has made this truly / nightmarish/ formidable/ unbearable/ hideous.  
I who never had a problem with heat before, am broiling and crawling from Tuesday. 

 Like a tortoise on it's back, baking on the desert Sun- Blade Runner, 1982.
Especially, Saturn going Retro in Moola (19).. We're broiling in the Heart of Sun..
Broiling in the Heart of The.. Black Hole Sun.. (a 1994 song) by Soundgarden

The video shows a haywire Sun.. creating a dystopia of superabundance 
Uncontrolled production/ cell division going into metastasis 
Saturn Retro/ Black Hole Sun is that period of annual cleansing/ purging
That checking period of necessary breakdown/ and burnout
Only when I type out these words, do I understand..
The meaning of Necessary Meltdown from a Karmic perspective
To maintain the originality/ purity of the Soul, such catharsis be imperative
Hence the necessity of Meltdown
The necessity of your brains Melting down your ears
The annual/ astrological necessity of Breakdown
Where, putrefied, stupefied, you crawl across the Desert of the Real..
Though you will feel more zombified, than real, Walk On..
For, this is the zone of Catharsis/ Purgatory/ Smelting Ore
..Trial by Fire/ purification by the smouldering Pyre..

Saturn Retro 2018: A Vale Of Shadows 03

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4th June, 2018, the 48th day of Saturn Retrograde, 2018. 

Being Saturnine, obviously Saturn Retrograde is the most difficult phase. 

Your weakest points, nightmares, backwater swamps come to the fore. 

Today I was reading Nietzsche's selected writings. 

On the death of the will. Overcoming ones Self.

Only by overcoming the trappings of the Conscious self

Can we  access the underlying Ocean of the Subconscious

And only by working on the latent Subconscious

Can we ever modify our Conscious reality

And how we Saturnine do this.. is by Falling in Retrograde

Falling from heavens.. diving into the dark oceans beneath

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To Fall. When Angels fall. The Falling of Angels from Heaven. 

Check this song: When The Angels Fall. By Sting. 

This song has Haunted me from childhood. But now I know. It's Saturnine quality. 

Falling from the high heavens. The Man Who Fell From The Sky..

..The encompassing surrender of the Falling... 

Now for the next Haunting Retrograde song. 

The Haunting sequence of "Falling" theme of Twin Peaks.

Synchronicity combined and titled "Falling"

The most serpentine series of the David Lynch universe

A million #twinpeaks hashtags, a million souls on Instagram 

Dive into the haunting pool of Twin Peaks

The Falling / Twin Peaks / Laura Palmer theme.

However much I write about Twin Peaks / Laura Palmer it's still less, because..

..It brings me images from a previous incarnation/ lifetime..

..Where, tangled in serpentine knots, a labyrinth of dis-real..

.. A troubled soul became lost, into a Vale of shadows..

And this, I feel clearly in the throes of Saturn Retrograde Season

the voices of whom, reverberate from a forgotten time..

.. Voices caught somewhere in the backwaters of time..

Each frame of the video contains slices of backwaters

recollection/ figments of a long forgotten.. nightmare/ dreamscape

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As Carl Jung said, the suppressed unconscious manifests as reality..

This Saturn Retrograde 2018 has given me a narrow opportunity..

To reverse, some long forgotten curse, long forgotten mistake

So far in the backwaters of my unconscious, that I don't even remember it..

But through a elaborate analytical process of unravelling, of many Retrograde seasons..

I have managed, this season, to access that long forgotten time/space

And through this process of Retrograde writing, regressive blogging..

..I have reach this zone of long lost backwaters 

..this zone of Immense haunting..

..To be updated..

Saturn Retro 2018: A Vale Of Shadows 02

This post has continued from the previous: Saturn-Retro-2018: A Vale of Shadows
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1st June, 2018, the 45th day of Saturn Retrograde 2018, 

The last few days saw me (in)volunitarily/ customarily/ imperatively/ ritually enter/ descend.. 

into the serpentine labyrinth of annual Saturn Retrograde. 

Into the vortex of Solar/ Rajas/ Fiery energies, 

During Saturn Retrograde, the suspension/ withdrawal/ inversion 

of the usual Saturnine energies radiated upon Earth. 

Hence, the window of opportunity for all malefic Saturn horoscopes,. 

And a period of exile/ hibernation for all the Saturnine ruled.

And, being Saturnine myself, 

however much I do project/ predict/ surmise/ wax philosophical about this period, 

it's always an altogether different experience when we go through it personally. 

Every season, a layer beneath/ within ourselves is revealed. 

Like the Serpentine journey into your inner spaces.. 

The marshy backwaters of your soul.  

The inner unraveling of your past life karma. 

The ramifications of the Twelfth house of your horoscope, 

The debts owed in previous incarnations.

It's like Andrei Tarkovsky's dis-real movie Solaris 

It's like David Lynch's serpentine Twin Peaks series. 

It's what Roalnd Barthes talks of dis-real in his book Lover's Discourse. 

It's what Elliot talks of the "wastelands". 

Or what Deleuze says about the Desert of the Real. 

It's what Edgar Allan Poe talks of, about the removing of the Veil, 

Like after the effects of Opium wears off, 

in the introduction to his story The Fall of The House of Usher. 

Like entering the heart of the Sun/ Logos/ Signification 

But which but contains a void/ vacuum of in-signification within

 Such is the vast metaphysical import.. 

The cathartic significance of Saturn Retrograde.