My 4th post on Saturn Retro 2025. Lying at home, recovering from stomach cramps, infections arising from wild abuse, and erratic, haywire, haphazard drinking/ diet of months. Luckily, the Ayurvedic remedy by my doctor yesterday has considerably reduced the symptoms/ conditions.
For me, Libra/ Swati ascendant, ruled by Lord Vayu, God of Winds.. to lie down flat at home, unless for a serious illness is true blasphemy. Especially home alone. So I ended watching endless movies on Apple TV, most of which turned out to be really, and surprisingly great. I am an Android user, PC user, and have always stayed far away from the ultimate status symbol brand of almost EVERYONE I know. But Apple TV proved to be really, juicy, satisfying, in every bite, in my days of cathartic illness.
But that was conditionaI to my lying flat and still and not moving. Surrendering to the sheer Gravitas of this ongoing phase (earlier posts). Letting go of my natural restlessness, my impatience. Surrendering to the exact requirement and schedule. Of the Gravitas phase. Of annual Saturn retrograde.
I also refrained from my daily cathartic Ketu rituals (too weak). Just surrendering to the phenomenon of Gravitas. In space, Gravity around Black Holes is infinite, even light cannot escape from it. Theoretically even Time stops. As an analogy, lying here, on terra firma, I could feel time stopping, even moving backwards. A thousand, million images of the past flashing through my mind's eyes. 20 years of recorded journaling, blogging, research of Saturn retrograde since 2005!!
So many memories, events, incidents, all entwined through annual Saturn retrograde seasons. Through a erratic, haywire, haphazard, lifetime... the seasons of retrograde have remained constant, providing steady tempo. Like a jazz band where everyone played psychedelic diverse notes, but the bass or drums keeping steady tempo. Holding it all together. Binding it all together. Like a coiling mesh of serpentine coils entwined together...
Coincidentally 👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼 my bro is working on an art piece EXACTLY depicting THAT..next to me. As I try to wrap up this loong meandering serpentine post.
A lingering taste of Gravity's Apples, in my mouth..
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