Retro 2014:04: Napoleons waterloo, Paris, etc

Hmm, were already into 21st day, third week, of the 4.5 month annual Saturn Retrograde which began from 4th March, Tuesday. But it's only today that I'm writing this 4th post on Saturn Retrograde. Haha, what an irony, that, even though, this IS a saturnine blog dedicated to Saturn/ Shanidev, it has to compulsorily begin with a citation/ preface to the Sun/ Surya, the father of Saturn/ Shanidev. And that I have to repeat the fact that Saturn Retrograde is an excellent period for Sun ruled people, and quite Karmic/ regressive for us Saturn ruled people, the Saturnines!

Even though I wrote nothing, on the contrary, so much has gone by these past few weeks of Saturn Retrograde. Three deaths in succession, one bright young architect who jumped from the 10th floor, she was suffering from Bi-polar ailment, married to a very close family friend of mine, whom i know from his birth. Then another of my faculty high School seniors Birendra Sikaria suddenly passed away, may his soul rest in peace. Yesternight my wife's grand mom passed away at the ripe old age of almost hundred years! The sequence of deaths, seemed to have followed the graph above, first the most young and most shocking, second slightly older yet before his time, the third at a very ripe old age of almost hundred after prolonged stay in hospital, and whose passing away was ultimately a release for her soul. Always in Saturn retrograde, I lose someone around me, it always gives me the shivers.

Now, we  are well into the Orange phase of Increasing Retro in the the above graph. For the Sun ruled/ malefic Saturn it is a period of blooming energy/ Shakti. Whereas for us Saturnines/ Saturn ruled, even though, the acute solar storm of Red has passed us by, the lingering effects of dread and unease still continue. I was going through so much fragmentation and regression automatically these past few days. And, I'm really pleased from the Saturnine point of view. Because, for us Saturn ruled people, if NOT now, when? Better this substantial annual expurgation happening on it's scheduled time of Saturn retrograde. I'm (in)voluntarily feeling severely lethargic, heavy, postponing matters here and there. Being Saturn ruled, this is my time to pull back the bowstrings, retreat, hibernate.

I was reading my past years posts on (click link)74 posts on Saturn Retro 2013 on my Karmic Unravelling blog, and one thing I noticed. About the foaming fervent almost rabid madness of my writings on Retrograde 2013. Obviously a form of catharsis for many previous years. However, this year, I'm almost writing like a lethargic, bureaucratic office notary. In the government report style, with it's accompanying dryness, detached-ness and  delay of narration. Lots of inflammable happenings have happened outside of these blog pages. Lots of combustion, chaos, and brain fry. But, I've delayed, dampened it so very much in this blogging/ narrative. (Except of course, the synchronised death sequence, tallying with above graph). But I had to go through years and years of violent expurgation to reach this current frame of mind/ body in this Saturn retro phase.

I know there's going to be quite some shockers ahead. But all Saturn ruled should maintain the lethargic, heavy, Tamasic mood/ disposition as much as possible. That is the Dharma of all Saturn ruled people for now. And the exact opposite for all Sun ruled/ malefic Saturn people. They should forge ahead to consolidate the breakthroughs of the prior Red stage. Make hay while the Sun shines without the hindering influence of Saturn.

I'm rather enjoying this long winding, meandering, unfolding serpentine posts. They are helping me to sync into the very mood of Saturn/ Shanidev in his Retrograde state. Most people mistake Saturn to be a cold dry detached planet. But, definitely NOT for those of us whom it's a beneficial planet. For us, he's a source of joy, delight, jouissance, progress, benefit, light, etc etc. Only when he goes Retrograde, are we officially scheduled to experience the darkness, gravitas usually associated by the rabidly superstitious masses with Saturn/ Shanidev. For my own Libran ascendant self, Saturn, the Lord of 4th and 5th house, gives me khujli, desire, restlessness, jouissance, libido, movement, energy, extrovert-ism, etc, etc. But that's PROVIDED I exercise the scheduled restraint, and regression that is mandatory for us Saturn ruled during Saturn retrograde. Submit voluntarily to the heaviness of gravitas naturally incident for us during this phase. So, so many years I have done the exact opposite, and borne their dark fruits. Our mistakes during the annual 4.5 months of Saturn retrograde, bear dark harvests for the subsequent period of  8.5 months of directional Saturn, that follows after Retrograde's end. 

I had one rising itch, these past few days, to copy paste the entire 74 posts of past Saturn Retro 2013, from my Karmic Unraveling blog onto this blog, to their rightful place! But, I'm feeling too lazy and not upto it. The link provided in the fourth paragraph above,  is good enough for those who are really interested anyways. Hey wondrous! I'm thinking like a lethargic, bureaucratic policy maker! Cheers to that! I feel like a heavy water buffalo wallowing in a muddy paddy field. That's the way to go, this Saturn Retrograde phase. And not prance about like the restless, nervous creature that I usually am.

Today, me and my cousin Sangram were trying to shoot some patches of my long, pending film: After Paris. Firstly, it took a humongous time to gather and download all the older files and clips from my archaic older PC to a pen drive. Then, while at my cousin Sangram's place, his machine was crashing. Later we did take some random but perfect shots depicting stagnation, decay, exile around different places. We got turned down twice by two people who were crucial to the wrapping up sequences of of this looong pending unfinished "short" film of mine.. After Paris. It has been like a heavy load on my shoulders, a la- Betaal on king Vikram's shoulders (that's me) for the past five years since 2009. All because of my gross solar mistakes during annual Saturn retrograde 2009. My trying to sieze the bull by it's horns, at the wrong time. My late astro guru T.N. Sarma, who passed away on Ultra Retro 2009, used to say that Napoleon, who had a great Saturn, lost his battle of Waterloo because he planned it during Saturn Retrograde. Otherwise, we could have have been all speaking French instead of English, across the great wide globe!! An Ode to Napoleon is due at this hour of Saturn Retrograde. Especially, as I drag out the the old calcifying shots of my unfinished short film "After Paris".

During Saturn Retrograde 2009, in the very first day of the dreaded Ultra Retro phase (check graph above) my then guru, astro guide suddenly passed away. But my wife had already clubbed me into accompanying her on her official trip to Paris, merely two weeks away. My Paris Trip happened during the extremely Rajasic/ Solar phase of Ultra Retro. a mistake for which I had to undergo great expurgation and hellish experiences for a long time, once Saturn went directional. And even before that I had shown great rajasic initiative during the previous stages of Saturn Retrograde. when, I could have just chilled and regressed in the serpentine backwaters of Saturn Retrograde. Something, that I try to follow during the annual period of saturn retrograde, ever since.

The GHOSTS of PAST Bygones and Retrograde Redemptions
As is customary for one as Saturnine like myself to repeat, regress, review, and retrospect during Saturn Retrograde, hence even after uoploading this post, I had to add this paragraph in tribute to the process of regression. For the past considerable days, I have been heavily retrospecting and regressing into my past. Former days, forgotten days, crossed over and forgotten territories, ancient ghosts, wisps of memories lurking in the backwaters of my soul. And one thing was predominantly CLEAR as I sliced across the cross sections of a multitude of memories. In my past/ prior life/ lives my violations were of the Rajasic/ Solar nature. I was a Rajasic/ solar soul gone corrupt/ haywire. A patriarch of power gone berserk, and rouge. Hence, in this life, i have to make amends to correct the same. By being/ becoming the Saturnine soul. flashbacking my many histories, one thing was even more clearer.. that I grossly violated the period of Annual Saturn Retrograde, many times over. And over! the way to correct ALL my past and prior mistakes, i have to consummate myself totally with the spirit of Saturn Retrograde. sync myself completely, utterly, and totally with the energies of regression, retrospection, and repetition. Use every opportunity that presents itself to make amends to ghosts of the past. To dive into haunting issues. Regress into pending backwaters utterly.

Redemptions for the Ghosts of Past bygones...  

Retro 2014:03: The schedule

I have updated the page Header "Saturn retrograde". copied it below..

Every year Saturn Retrograde for about 4.5 months. In Vedic astrology Saturn is represented by the symbol of bow and arrow. During annual Saturn Retrograde, this cosmic bow of Saturn can said to be pulled back, the effects of Saturn can said to be withdrawn, inverted, reversed. It's a highly potent period for both whom Saturn is beneficial and as well as those whose Saturn is malefic, or those whose Sun is strong. For Saturnine people, i.e, those whom Saturn is a benefic, Karaka planet, it's a time for regression, retreat, withdrawal, introspection and accumulation of potential energy. Which, when Saturn finally becomes directional for the next 8.5 months, yields positive developments, forward movements, kinetic energy,  and progress. However, conersely, for those whom Saturn is malefic, should utilise this period of Saturn Retrograde for all kinds of forward, positive, breakthrough movements. their main malefic saturn is withdrawn/ inverted, they should make the most of it. During this period, the saying "make hay while the Sun shines" holds perfect.
Since, this is a Saturnine Blog, all Saturn retrograde strategies will be obviously more from the perspective from the Saturnine point of view. The perspective of those for whom Saturn is a great benefic, karaka, planet.

In the above graph, during Saturn Retrograde, coloured in Red, the bowstring and arrows of Saturn is showed to be pulled back. This is a "Hot" period, good for Sun ruled people and bad for saturnine people. From my observations, I have found that every point A' during saturn retrograde yields it's inverse counterpart A, when Saturn finally goes directional. Each point during Saturn Retrograde is shown to yield it's Inverse counterpart when saturn goes directional. Every Saturnine person can thus use this period of Saturn retrograde to pull himself back, so that, naturally when saturn goes directional he can experience automatic forward motion, progress, growth, etc etc.

The entire energy distribution during saturn retrograde is not uniform, the key points of pullback are showed in detail in the graph below.

Detailed Schedule of Annual Saturn Retrograde
The above graph represents a typical 4.5 month period of Annual Saturn Retrograde, year 2014. every year this 4.5 month period is postponed by approximately 14 days. The phases are described in detail below.

ARREST phase: Two weeks prior to the date when Saturn/ Shanidev turns Retrograde, the fall/ drop in Saturns forward motion, commence the noticeable effects of Saturn retro. Suddenly, this is felt by the Saturnine person as a fall in energy, jouissance, enjoyment, libido, adrenalin, a kind of let down. For the Sun ruled, or malefic Saturn people, this period is felt in a sudden rise of energy, hope, adrenalin buzz.

INCREASING RETRO: As Saturn's retrograde velocity increases daily, this 2.5 month period can be experienced as a period of Fall/ retreat for the Saturnine person. This period is further subdivided into three phases, which for convenience I'm classifying as First, second and Third Gear..!
FIRST GEAR: (Two weeks)- The first two weeks of Saturn Retrograde, present the highest difficulty for the Saturn ruled person. Depending on the position of Sun and Saturn in his birthchart, he can experience this period as a sudden arresting of his movement, a sudden stagnation, a sudden fall. This is when the highest Acceleration occurs (Highest daily change/ increase in Retrograde Velocity). And hence Force = Mass X Acceleration, highest acceleration ( change in Daily velocity) also translates as HIGHEST regressive force experienced.Thisd period represent the Highest energy, power for the Sun ruled, or malefic Saturn person.

SECOND GEAR: (One Month)- In this one month, gradually the initial shock of the "First Gear" wears and the Saturnine person can finally find some tolerable gaps, and cracks in the long Retrograde exile he had been experiencing since the Twilight Phase itself. In this phase he can commence random movement here and there. However, since the overall movement is of Retrogression, regression, retreat, substantial activities connected to retrospection, repetition, contemplation are suggested. 
THIRD GEAR: ( One Month)- In this one month, the Saturnine person has adjusted to the hibernation mode of Saturn Retrograde. Review, retreat, contemplation, philosophy, is encouraged. To counteract the prevailing ternd of Regression, one can use a diverse, diffused, fragmented and scattered approach of random activity to keep the blood circulating. As Saturn gradually approaches Highest/ maximmum/ 100%  retrograde, daily increase in velocity reduces, and the Retrograde forces are experienced as reducing. The exact diametrical inverse holds true for the Sun ruled or those with malefic Saturn.

EBBING RETRO:(One Month)  As Saturn's retrograde velocity drops from its maximum 100% velocity, this period of reduced accleration, reduced force, represents a month of Forward motion after a long time, almost of past three months for the Saturnine person. He should make the most of this month, by both initiatig and responding to all kinds of progressive, positive, movements, energy, jouissance, etc. make the most of this. The exact diametrical inverse holds true for the Sun ruled or those with malefic Saturn, they should take a brief rest, chill during this period of ebbing retro. 

ULTRA RETRO:(3 weeks)  This period can be compared to the afternoon heat around 3 pm, when it's hottest, even hotter than noon. This sudden three week period right after a month of ebbiong Saturn Retrograde energies can be experience as QUITE a shock, sudden backward fall, sudden regression. It's very pronounced because of it's compression, contraction to a 3 week period of intensity. Saturnine people should take all kinds of precaution during this phase. Completely let go of ones ego, and just mechanically respond to the external circumstances. The exact diametrical inverse holds true for the Sun ruled or those with malefic Saturn, this is a window of great energy and opportunity for them. Iron is hot, just strike it full force. And after a three week period of deadly acute effects this ultra Retro suddenly vanishes! Dissolves into the air!

RELEASE: Hence the actual physical effects of end/ release of Saturn Retrograde energies actually commence Two Weeks prior to the official ending date of annual Saturn Retrograde. After the sudden mysterious vanishing of the 3 weeks of acute Ultra Retro energies, the effects of Saturn directional motion already commences. Two weeks before the official end of annual Saturn retrograde. This is the end of saturn Retrograde, and distinctly felt by the Saturnine person as a rise in energy, jouissance, enjoyment, libido, adrenalin, a kind of boost. Cheers to a phase well utilised.

The periods colored by Red indicate maximum pullback, retreat, constriction for the Saturnine people, and highest energy, benefits, for Sun ruled, or people with malefic Saturn in their birthcharts. Orange represent less critical periods, Yellow even lesser. Blue period of 1 month ebbing Retro represent a welcome break of Forward motion for Saturnine people.Ultra Retro is a deadly three week for the saturnine people, after which the effects of annual Saturn retro concludes.

During saturn retrograde, theres a pronounced, high contrast between Sun and Saturn ruled people. once Saturn becomes directional, this acute difference, contrast slowly vanishes/ dissolves.

Retro 2014:02: 4th Mar- 21st July

Introduction
Friends, once again the annual Retrograde motion of Saturn (in respect to earth) commences from 4th of March to 21st July. Four and a half months. I had covered the previous Saturn Retrograde, 2013 in great detail in my Karmic Clearing Blog, please click this link: 74 Posts on Saturn Retro 2013. This year, after even having a blog dedicated to Saturn/ Shanidev, I was still not sure of doing a feature on this years Annual Saturn retrograde period. However, over the past few weeks I've been brought to a great slowdown in affairs, compelling me to look at this prevailing motion of Saturn/ Shanidev. One way or the other I'm compelled to do this feature!
Since 2003 itself I have had vast records, comprehensive journals of observations, data, etc on this annual period of Saturn Retrograde. Last year, 2013, I wrote all my observations directly on my blog, making it available for all to see, the strange effects and phenomenon of this unique annual phase. Check my 74 posts on Saturn Retro 2013, there are a vast pantheon of strange phenomenon. This year, since more or less I have decided to go on with this annual observation, first I reformatted the graph for the schedule of Saturn retrograde, 2014...

Saturnine perspective of Annual Saturn retrograde 2014
Saturn/ Shanidev is the opposite of the Sun. Hence the period of Saturn Retrograde is a HIGH period for Sun ruled people, and a LOW period for Saturn ruled people. in Vedic astrology, Saturn is symbolised by the bow and arrow. Saturn retrograde represents a period of pulling back of this cosmic bowstring. So that once Saturn turns directional, the Saturnine person, can commence with his progress, forward motion for the rest of the year. For Saturn ruled people, it is a time for introspection, withdrawal, reversal, retreat, etc. Since, this blog is Saturnine, all observations and descriptions of the Retrograde phenomenon will be henceforth, EXCLUSIVELY from the Saturnine point of view. How Saturn Ruled people could maximise the benefits of this 4.5 month long Annual Saturn Retrograde people.

Detailed Schedule of Annual Saturn retrograde 2014
The different phases of Annual Saturn Retrograde is described in specific colours as follows:

ARREST phase: Two weeks prior to the date when Saturn/ Shanidev turns Retrograde, the fall/ drop in Saturns forward motion, commence the noticeable effects of Saturn retro. Suddenly, this is felt by the Saturnine person as a fall in energy, jouissance, enjoyment, libido, adrenalin, a kind of let down. On 18th Feb, Tuesday, EXACTLY two weeks before Saturn turned retrograde on 4th March, Tuesday, I was at a friends wedding at Tivoli Graderns, Chattarpur Farms. I was very excited and looking forward to an evening of fanfare. However, I notice that we had to return early withe mere drinks and snacks, as food would be served much later when the groom finally arrived. There was a considerable fall in my jouissance level, I remember feeling left high and dry! Later, whole night I was up till 3am, Whats app-ing with my hostel friends group, drowning in reminiscing about the hostel days.

INCREASING RETRO: As Saturn's retrograde velocity increases daily, this 2.5 month period can be experienced as a period of Fall/ retreat for the Saturnine person. This period is further subdivided into three phases, which for convenience I'm classifying as First, second and Third Gear..!
FIRST GEAR: (Two weeks)- The first two weeks of Saturn Retrograde, present the highest difficulty for the Saturn ruled person. Depending on the position of Sun and Saturn in his birthchart, he can experience this period as a sudden arresting of his movement, a sudden stagnation, a sudden fall. This is when the highest Acceleration occurs (Highest daily change/ increase in Retrograde Velocity). And hence Force = Mass X Acceleration, highest acceleration ( change in Daily velocity) also translates as HIGHEST regressive force experienced.
SECOND GEAR: (One Month)- In this one month, gradually the initial shock of the "First Gear" wears and the Saturnine person can finally find some tolerable gaps, and cracks in the long Retrograde exile he had been experiencing since the Twilight Phase itself. In this phase he can commence random movement here and there. However, since the overall movement is of Retrogression, regression, retreat, substantial activities connected to retrospection, repetition, contemplation are suggested. 
THIRD GEAR: ( One Month)- In this one month, the Saturnine person has adjusted to the hibernation mode of Saturn Retrograde. Review, retreat, contemplation, philosophy, is encouraged. To counteract the prevailing ternd of Regression, one can use a diverse, diffused, fragmented and scattered approach of random activity to keep the blood circulating. As Saturn gradually approaches Highest/ maximmum/ 100%  retrograde, daily increase in velocity reduces, and the Retrograde forces are experienced as reducing.

EBBING RETRO:(One Month)  As Saturn's retrograde velocity drops from its maximmum 100% velocity, this period of reduced accleration, reduced force, represents a month of Forward motion after a long time, almost of past three months for the Saturnine person. He should make the most of this month, by both initiatig and responding to all kinds of progressive, positive, movements, energy, jouissance, etc. make the most of this.

ULTRA RETRO:(3 weeks)  This period can be compared to the afternoon heat around 3 pm, when it's hottest, even hotter than noon. This sudden three week period right after a month of ebbiong Saturn Retrograde energies can be experience as QUITE a shock, sudden backward fall, sudden regression. It's very pronounced because of it's compression, contraction to a 3 week period of intensity. Saturnine people should take all kinds of precaution during this phase. Completely let go of ones ego, and just mechanically respond to the external circumstances. And after a three week period of deadly acute effects this ultra Retro suddenly vanishes! Dissolves into the air!

RELEASE: Hence the actual physical effects of end/ release of Saturn Retrograde energies actually commence Two Weeks prior to the official ending date of annual Saturn Retrograde. After the sudden mysterious vanishing of the 3 weeks of acute Ultra Retro energies, the effects of Saturn directional motion already commences. Two weeks before the official end of annual Saturn retrograde. This is the end of saturn Retrograde, and distinctly felt by the Saturnine person as a rise in energy, jouissance, enjoyment, libido, adrenalin, a kind of boost. Cheers to a phase well utilised.


Postscript: This year, definitely i had been completely trying to avoid writing about Saturn retro, but after having uploaded the above post, i feel considerably lighter. Sharing the insights and oozing loquaciously during Saturn retrograde is definitely a Karmic schedule for me. a process by which i gather potential energy for movement, motion, and release once Saturn turns directional later. Personally, i love movement much more than theory and observation. and the motion accorded to me is a direct proportion to the theoretical inputs i ooze out during saturn retrograde. a time for contemplation, observation, theory, abtract concepts for the Saturnine.

Retro2014:01: Melancholia- Lars Von Trier

Todays 21st Februray, 2014. And we are already two days into the Arrest phase of Saturn Retrograde, beginning from 4th of march. See graph below. The brown coloured "Arrest" phase commences, two weeks before Saturn retrograde actually begins from 4th March. This "Arrest"phase gives us signs and feelers into the approaching phase of the 4.5 month long Saturn Retrograde. And as a sign of the coming times, I randomly and unplannedly ended up watching Lars Von Triers movie Melancholia, stg Kirsten Dunst, and Charlotte Gainsbourg. I had sworn to never watch any of his movies after the super dark, ghoulish Anti Christ, banned in Cannes itself. But since I am still permanently hungover his earlier unbelievable Dogville, stg Nicole Kidman, I took courage. This makes perfect sense as far as this brown coloured "Arrest" phase is concerned. A perfect preamble, prefatory gesture into the approaching Saturn Retrograde...

From the first frame of Melancholia, I was mesmerized. the emotions of Saturn Retrograde perfectly expressed in all it's full glory. Kirsten Dunst in a super slow motion frame, with autumn leaves falling on all sides. An unimaginable opening sequence of  suspended time, suspended animation. Still, static, floating objects. In a timeless space, forever frozen. things clacified, fossilized in midst of their motion. Frozen into statues, 3 dimensional time sculptures. Saturn retrograde expressed beyond imagination.

In the movie storyline, a vast asteroid/ planet called Melancholia hidden behind the Sun, crosses  paths with the earths orbit in a collision course. finally ending in a total cataclysmic global catastrophe. The entire movie is a slow, nerve crawling buildup to this looming catastrophe. In fact, the underlying darkness, sense of looming doom was much more effective and powerful than Trier's  ghoulish movie Anti Christ. In fact the dread, melancholia stays with you much longer.. and deeper.On the surface there's beauty, but beneath that there's a acute sense of Gravitas, foreboding doom of a approaching unimaginable fate.

Melancholia in Terms of Saturn Retrograde
But what  was most awesome, was this movie being the perfect expression of this rapidly approaching Saturn Retrograde. I could have watched this dated movie, anytime, but yet I was watching it now, in the brown coloured Arrest period of Saturn retrograde (check above graph). Seeing the signs, portents of things to come in this rapidly approaching 4.5 month long period of Saturn Retrograde 2014. As i will explain myself in future posts in detail, Saturn Retrograde is a period of forward motion, becoming, identity for the Sun ruled people. But for Saturnines, i.e, the Saturn ruled people, it's a time of unbecoming, unraveling, regression, decay and retreat.

The movie opened with joy, magic, fun, social warmth, ceremony, success of Kirsten Dunst's marriage. Somewhat like the forward, glorious motion I have been experiencing since Saturn went directional in my ascendant house, in it's exalted position in Libra since July 2013. But then, everything goes haywire, as Lars Von Trier runs amok with his usual iconoclastic darkness. Everything falls apart, in a series of unimaginable disasters, until the final Cataclysmic Catastrophe, where the runaway blue planet Melancholia ultimately crashes into the Earth, ending all human life. Somewhat, like the effects we Saturnines, saturn ruled people experience during Saturn's retrograde motion. Somewhat chilling as this Saturn Retrograde is happening in my ascendant house Libra, directly aspecting my 7th house, ruled by marriage and partnerships.
What was noticeable, was the twilightish colour blue in the entire movie. The planet Melancholia suffused everything with it's turquoise illumination. But this was haunting pale "melancholic" blue. This is the melancholic "blue" colour of Saturn Retrograde, that all Saturn ruled people experience during Saturn's retrograde motion. What we call the "Blues". This blue is not soothing, but a haunting twilight blue, unimaginable. In one scene Kirtsen Dunst lies beneath the night sky, fully naked and exposed to the Blue rays of looming planet of dread, Melancholia. It's a sequence of suspended animation, things floating in static suspension, with a VAST underlying feeling of dread and unease.  You can actually sense the invisible portent of pproachinga cataclysmic doom. Almost mirroring the  sense and feelings of the of the approaching Saturn Retrograde in my ascendant sign Libra, in my self itself.
My approaching dread of Saturn Retrograde, magically expressed by the stunningly visual and the  suspended animation of Lars Von Trier's haunting movie... Melancholia..

Crawl 08: Jupiter in Saturns house

Saturn/ Shanidev in my 9th house fate, philosophy, etc, makes me continually experience the slow, unfolding repetitions. As opposed to the straight cut linear path, I experience the cyclic motions,  reexaminations, spirals of deconstruction. It's destined/ thrust upon me to experience this! The Saturnine process. The crawls pace of things.
The month of February was so super slow for me. In contrast to the previous months of November, December, January, with so many things happening all at once. Multiples and multitudes of events. Suddenly the month of February finds me in still waters. A dead autumn gloom. Due to the current Jupiter retrograde? In all previous years, the periods of Jupiter retrogrades have always been full of activity, as Jupiter is Retrograde and Debilitated in my natal chart. But as the therapies and obeisance to Jupiter have unfolded over the past year, has Jupiter become a progressively beneficial planet for me? And hence causing me to experience this current Jupiter Retrograde as a grinding slowdown? I guess i will only find out once Jupietr goes directional, in the first week of March. But uptil then, I drown in this Saturnine, crawls pace of things.

(In my natal chart, Jupiter is  in my 4th house, Capricorn, owned by Saturn). On a recent/ deeper perspective my Navamsa Lagna is Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter. is this what I was experiencing all this while? A retrograde and debilitated Jupiter energy in a Saturnine package? As in deconstruction, do I have to decode the Saturnine aspect to unfold the Sagittarius Navamsa personae lurking beneath. What Zizek calls Tarrying with the Negative for creation of Being??? Well, guess I have to walk the walk, and find out for myself.
For "traditional" Vedic astrology is a truly post modern deconstructive process...

Crawl 07: Friday the 13th!!

In vedic astrology, the Sun represents the Structuralist approach, where things are always defined, rational, ordered, linear, clear cut, and transparent. What you see is mostly what you get. Whereas, Shanidev/ Saturn, the son of the Sun, represents the deconstructive approach, the serpentine journey, where things are always different from what they seem. You never get what you see, and never see what you get. 
Today's Friday the 13th, after a long time. It was considered inauspicious in Western tradition because it was when Jesus Christ was put on the crucifix. The very famous horror/ slasher Friday the 13th, movie series, made it much more popular to the masses. From the Vedic astrology point, it doesn't hold much salt, but from the Hebrew Kabbalah numerological viewpoint, they ascribe some dark attributes to this day. From the logic, rational, centric, Solar viewpoint, one would try to define whether this myth is true OR not. Classify it clearly either as True OR False. But from the Saturnine/ deconstructive perspective, it is another matter altogether. It is worthwhile to penetrate deeper into this apparently simplistic Urban legend of Friday the 13th. To plumb beneath it's surface implications, to reach a  deeper perspective, of the underlying potential that this day has to offer! I feel it's an opportune day to address/ pay homage to the symbolic/ theoretical mythological darkness associated with the Crucifixion of Jesus, the son of God, in the Christian religious order. I believe, at the prehistoric, primitive age, the roots of all world orders, religions were the same. And hence, there is some salt to the mythic rituals, observances. Rather than adopt the Solar approach of ignoring/ subscribing to Friday the 13th, I will try to use the occasion, as an excuse of an opportunity,  to plumb into the undercurrent of it's belief/ mythos. For some potential unraveling insights that this day might have to offer. Who knows?
... to be contd.. (?)

Crawl 06: Android Update

In my previous post, Crawl 02: caveman-in-future-shock I had bemoaned about how I was perplexed  with android phone technology. How, after disposing my crumbling cellular phone, I hastily bought a 2G phone, and later, how, stumbling with the slow Net speed, I further hastily, had attempted it to resell it by the internet portals of Olx and Quickr. But in the deconstructive journey of the Saturnine experience, first sight is often completely erroneous and things always gradually unravel, in the characteristic serpentine, crawls-pace of Lord Shanidev/ Saturn. A journey that finds me currently, NOT using my android phone for constant inetrconnectivity on the net, the sole purpose for which I had purchased it, but rather using it's rather ordinary resolution camera to relentlessly click my hearts desire, my forever fascinated, ever favorite style of the Panaromic view, the magic and mystery of the ultra wide angle photograph. And in a furthermore unanticipated bonus activity, load a LOT of my ancient archives of comic books from the forgotten Golden age, onto the phone, and delve into their complex artworks, designs, at all times and places. Previously, I had been rabidly cursing modern technology as a neccesary evil, but as characteristic of the Saturnine journey, after a short while only, am withdrawing my opinions, by getting amazed by the same digital conveniences. Surprisingly, Android technology, has quite a few tricks to teach, even to an old, antiquated, Saturnine creature as myself. Even though, it did not fulfil the object for which I had purchased it, but suddenly this device began to fulfill some desires, which I had unknowingly for long, fostered and  buried within myself. Especially, I found so, at the Select Citywalk mall, as my wife Sangeeta was wrapping up her Krispy Kreme project, and I accompanied her, reading endless comics on my Android phone, and clicking panaromic snaps, of her site. Even though, which had to be downloaded and compiled later on Power Point software on my PC! :P ! Jai Shanidev!